About to Suicide! SAVE ME PLEASE

It can definitely get better. I had symptoms similar to what you describe and all have improved greatly. It's a process so the results are not immediate, but if you stay away from porn for a lengthy period of time you will almost certainly get better.

Good luck and don't give up

 

I should have added. If you feel suicidal please immediately speak to someone about what you are going through, such as a medical professional.

Don't forget, lots of people have fully recovered from what you describe.

 

Hey brother, I am at work right now. Can't reply in detail. Will respond after getting back home. Hang on tight. In the meanwhile, please read my recovery from PIED here:
https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/pied-cured-after-8-months.262149/

 

Do you have any mental illness as well ? I am goin thru hell as well , i also think to finish this miserable life

 

Just got your message there. Feel free to PM me if you want to ask anything at all.

 

Hello there,

I had ED too but now it's gone, here some advices :
--> a healthy life style (doing some qi gong or yoga geared towards sexual health can really help)
--> if it's been more than 10 years ir abusing your body, 90 days is a good start but a bit short (no PM is way of life man)
--> ED can come from the mind (porn) and too much usage (masturbation and ejaculation)
--> After some weeks/months you can have sex but do not ejaculate (and do slow sex ) talk to your partner about it so it doesnt became weird.
--> Go read this topic https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/6-years-clean-rebooting-as-the-best-remedy.135983/

The first few months I ejaculated as soon as my dick was inside my gf.... now 2 years later I can have sex for a long time, even gooing up the speed if needed but I don't ejaaculate all the times. Be aware that semen is what it costs your body the most to create.

Hope you find your way.

 

I’m sorry to hear you are struggling. Rebooting has its ups and downs, just like life. We see many people experiencing ups and downs during reboot, and though it may be hard to see now, these feelings won’t last forever. It will get better with time if you’re patient and wait.

In the meantime please seek professional help. I know the idea of calling a helpline might terrify you, but in times of crisis we often need someone there to put our life into perspective. So please contact someone that can help and don’t hang up on them.

https://www.iasp.info/
The international association for suicide prevention maintains a list of suicide prevention hotlines for countries all over the world.

http://suicidestop.com/suicide_prevention_chat_online.html
If you don’t feel like talking to someone on the phone, they maintain a list of online instant messaging suicide prevention resources.

You are not alone in this. There are ways to treat depression. Please contact people that can help you. Being depressed often makes you feel like you don’t have anymore options. But that is a lie. That is just the depression talking. These feelings you have won’t last forever. We are in this with you and will be cheering for you to get through this!

 

Look brother. Had the same, when I had sex I came in 1 or 2 seconds if I luckily got hard, because in those days I did not get hard at all. It was worthless...

200+ days of no porn and no matrubation and I have good sex now with my girlfriend, sometimes 2 times in a row reaching up to 10-15 minutes each which is average and good.

I seriously never thought I could heal but I did. I also was suicidal but I kept going. There are way too many stories that confirmed that Nofap works. No porn is not enough, do not touch your penis at all... no porn no matrubation, never.

 

Anyone talking about suicide should get professional help. If you are living alone or with a family member who doesn't know or care or who you can't be confidential with, then you need allies more than strangers on these forums. 12 step groups are frequent, even if they are about alcohol and drugs or Al anon which is about those who are affected by addictions, it is still good to go to for social connection.

The focus should be health and balance not specifically focusing on one thing, the groin and sexual function, it all comes back if you give it a rest. Exercise, even walking a lot, hydrotherapy, fresh air and sun. Support groups, 12 steps, church meetings for meditation.

 

I had a similar problem but I havnt fully recovered from the ability to get erect and maintain erection. As for the desire to watch porn its mostly gone. Part of the reason why I am continuing with NoFap is because of this, so I can fully gain my sexual function back.
I am still reading Soaring Eagle's 'Reboot as the best remedy'. He suffered from health problems secondary to excessive PMO and it took him 6 years to recover fully. From what I am reading so far, not only he recovered but he came out of it as a different person. As for me, I am 31 years old and I wont be surprised if it takes me 6 years. Given that 37 is not that bad of an age to fully enjoy sex its not bad having to wait.

Based on this I would highly recommend you read Soaring Eagle's 'Rebooting as the best remedy'. Its already there as a thread on NoFap and its there for download on pdf when searched on Google. If you have already read this and took action based on this text I do apologise. But if you havnt come across then I would recommend you start reading it. I havnt finished it myself but I can see new points whichever topic I am reading. For me, reading a chapter itself gives me a lot of encouragement.

Believe you will recover. Forget about the 90 days and numbers. Just give it all you got and even let go of the desire for results. Best wishes. Dont give up yet.

 

For ed kegel exercise do wonders , if anyone hav ed thn try it . It will be ok its my exerience

 

I do not think Kegels are the answer because I think this is a neuro signalling disorder because all this porn and mastrubation led to our brain not sending sufficient signals to our penises to get erect and stay erect. Kegels are more for the bloodflow and hardness when there are enough signals but this is more am issue for older men but not for young men. For young men it is mostly the brain and how do you heal the brain? Exactly! NOFAP

 

Time is the greatest healer.

Erectile dysfunction is nothing to end your life over. Even if you your condition doesnt improve at all (which it almost certainly will) theres a little blue pill you can take when the need arises that will make your old chap as hard as cast iron steal for hours on end.

 

Moreover, when someone has serious organic troubles down there and even the blue pill does not work, they have this penis implant which makes your hard on demand and soft on demand. People these days are unbelievable, I am so grateful to live in this era which this kind of technology!

So I completely agree with you.

 

Whatever happened to a good old fashioned PENIS PUMP?!

Go watch Austin Powers and take a lesson!

 

How'd your penis shrink small and get soft?