So yesterday was my 12th day without PMO... kind of? But I'm starting over... Again. And here's why: Does all this even really count if you're edging, looking at subtle pics, and maybe even watching porn without masturbating the whole time? Cause thats what I was doing and its not worth it. When I look back at all of it, it doesn't even seem like progress. I would edge almost every other day, I would look at seemingly innocent pics that I knew would lead me down the wrong path, and I would even watch porn and tell myself "Its okay to still watch if you don't jerk off". Not anymore. My quality of life is worth so much more than that! And thats what I want everyone else on here to realize too! I've heard it over and over but now I finally realize that cold turkey truly is THE BEST (maybe even the only) way to go. If you're not going hardmode/cold turkey you're teasing yourself and you're missing out on living your best life. I know I have been. Its time to straighten up and act right for real this time. I'm making a promise to myself to be better because I am better. ***trigger*** I'm better than almost bringing myself to orgasm in the shower every night. I'm better than searching for stuff I know I shouldn't be looking at. And I'm better than the grip that porn and masturbation have had on my life for so long, too long. Today I make a pact with myself and whoever is with me. Basically to not even touch my dick unless I'm peeing or washing. (Honestly it sounds stupid, funny and way too strict but thats how you have to be) I will not edge from here on out. I've deleted all social media so that I won't be tempted. I'm in this 100% This is the best way to get to my best life. Start getting clean and free for real guys. Its worth it. You're worth it.