Abstinance and sexual aggression

Hi i'm stug and new to this forum altough i sometimes have visited this and similar forums in the past. I have POIS which is a disorder which causes an immune reaction upon erection ( not always with erection but usually or sometimes) or orgasm ( 100%). Abstinance is the only way save yourself so to speak. Currently i have also torn my ACL in my knee ( last 1.5 years ) which prevents me from blowing off steam with exercise in general

What i have come to notice is that sexual behaviour/ masturbation is related to domination or aggression, not to submissive behaviour at all ( at least for me ). I'm not addicted to porn in any way, i don't watch it regularly or weekly. i just have some spontanious short binges which are unproductive.

In real life i don't like other ethnicities ( not always but usually ) , it's not hate but i simply don't like them and avoid them at all costs because dealing with multicultural enviroments in cities is unnatural for me ( even tho i grew up in such enviroments ) . Everytime i go somewhere else where things are more countryside and ethnocentric i feel 100 % more at ease. Its just the way it is. In nature with human tribes if some stranger from another ethnicity would visit your tribe unwanted you would be likely to smash him up. this always happens in history think of the conquistadores who got smashed on multiple occasions ( still happens to christians visiting tribes in asia or south america ) This ''immigrant crisis'' is an invasion ( nobody wants this ... just some idiot elites who control the top ) and i would f**k most of them up if there were no cops around instead of watching porn to vent.

I noticed when i deal with multicultural situations and abstinance i build up aggression and i fall back into watching porn for some reason i always watch woman with other ethnicities like arabs, ethiopians, mixed race etcetra everything non-native. In real life i like red haired woman or blondes for example but i don't watch them on porn/internet. Basically i watch porn to get angry and to express anger, its kinda neurotic if you think about it ( not healthy at all )

Multicultural societies for me are a trigger ( unless there are woman with nijabs) .. i get angry because of the situation and because i have to deal with all these other cultures and ethnicities... then the cycle begins. I don't like society in general just like alot of people do and this alone already makes me want to isolate myself ( i isolated myself for 6 years straight ).

I already thought about moving to a different country last few years. Isolating myself here is impossible ( population density is high ).

I also want to add that western society is hypersexualized which is also turn off for me.. i cannot really go into society and function..

I wonder if someone else has similar issues regardless of the trigger, its some weird animalistic bullshit/reptile brain shit. You get some weird psychological pathology when you get into unnatural situations / triggers.