Hi! I haven't consumed P in more than 230 days. I'm perfectly fine doing M, it doesn't affect my inner peace and happiness, so I do it from time to time, but still try to keep it under control, so I don't M too often. I'm starting doing interviews. I want to change my job. The thing is ... I feel very confident with my self, my skills and my cv are indeed quite good, but have noticed that when I don't do M, my self-esteem gets a little bit of a boost, so to speak, going higher. What do you think? is it real or I'm getting it all wrong? Can absteining from M really boost our self-esteem? if so, why do you think that happens?