Accountability and forgiving myself

Hi. I was going to post in the women's section and the under 18 section, but I just felt like they weren't for me. One I'd feel uncomfortable if I'd post something a little tmi and someone younger than me saw it. Why do I think like that? Cause I have anxiety and undiagnosed OCD. And I didn't come here to focus on battling porn( which is something that I don't really battle with) but not letting sexual things and porn be my coping skills, hence why self improvement seems like the best route for me.

 

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So...it's 3 am . Just chilling. I don't usually stay up this late. What have I done to self improve... Absolutely nothing. Emotionally and mentally I'm tired as hell. I'm always worrying about stuff you know. OCD makes me worry a lot. I just feel like I can never be happy. Ever since I was born there was always something to overcome, like a obstacle , or someone treating me bad, or a move . It's like I can't get a break . I dream of a happy life, travelling and all that. But it's still a fear that I'll never get to have a happy life because of my past . I can't let it go , and at this point I'm just digging stuff up to worry or be upset about. I wish I could have a seemingly normal life you know . Anyway I'll update tomorrow.