Accountability for All

Day 9 check in

 

Day 16 let's do this ting

 

Day 72!!

thanks!! we're all doing this together

I'm glad you're on track to becoming someone healthier! Step by step we'll get there!

Welcome!! Some practical advice would be do exercise, it's helped me so much to focus my mind on something new and challenging. Also if you find it reasonable take a break from social media from time to time, many of our cravings start there. Yesterday I had to delete tiktok and twitter because I realized lately I'd been opening these apps looking for explicit content. And there's no way I'm watching P, not doing that ever again.

 

Day 2
The secret to success is hard work, success is the product of hard work not an easy life. People are not successful unless they face adversity, suffering, and the desire to give up.
I want to be successful and I am, today. One day at a time.

 

Day 1
The official start of the journey. Busy day today to distract me, so that's a nice plus. Thank you so much for the advice and encouragement everyone! I really do appreciate it. I got great advice from everybody who responded and will put them into practice. I'm throwing everything I got at this addiction.

 

You've got this! Way to go man, no looking back, keep moving forward!

 

Day 5 check in

 

Day 6 check in

 

Checking in day 1

 

Day 10 checking in.

Going ok today, been distracted all morning and decided to minimise time on my phone and the sofa. I guest most of the urges when in the same spots so avoiding them initially for the first 90 days ish may help!

 

Day 73!

 

Day 3
I am having a hard time. I have not caved in a watched porn. This is tough.

I am staying strong, I am almost crying, still persevering. One day at a time.

For all you fapstronauts out there struggling, know that the climb is worth it and you are not alone.

 

Day 17 hardmode. Feeling energy deep building up deep inside me but resisting the urges. It can feel quite stressful to not release it but I need to get used to transmuting the power of it into other areas of my life.

Planning a big morning of exercise tomorrow and going to create a day plan for after that to keep busy! Not gonna get into that weekend trap of feeling like I've nothing to do and then pmoing. Fuck that shit.

Cold showers rule!

 

How long do you take a cold shower for?
I do about 60 mississippi seconds.

 

Day 0

 

Hi guys. It has been a long time since I wrote to you. I started fighting this disease since 2019 in December, maybe corylife remembers it. I tried many times, I wanted to change, I felt bad, I already had a girlfriend and felt that I was cheating on her with this, also PMO made me feel sad, dirty and guilty. I had never told anyone about it and this kept me prisoner, I suffered a lot at school and that is also where they started me there, they forced me to see P. What I didn't know was that because of what I went through at school at home and other problems in me there was a very big wound, a lot of hatred, to alleviate this I towards PMO. Until last August I believed that I could never leave it, I always tried, it lasted a few weeks and came back, sometimes I could only do it for a few days but it came back. I had hundreds of relapses I felt bad, I believed that there was no hope for my life, I believed that the headaches, cough, feeling dirty, my anxiety and depression would never end, because now I see that all these were symptoms of PMO . In August I got an Epididymo-orchitis infection when I was doing M I felt that something hurt me and I thought it would pass, but the following days I felt pain and I looked at my balls were swollen, I did not know what to do I despaired I felt a lot of pain I could not walk , running, or going to the bathroom, when urinating it still hurt, it was terribly wrong, I investigated and said that it was impossible for me to, that it was due to relationships but I never had, after a week with pain I could no longer that week I had been praying to God telling him about what happened at school (They beat me down there or all over my body, they humiliated me like that for many years I suffered at home my father left my mother took care of my brothers I felt rejected ) I told God with tears that I no longer had any way out, also in this year my father died, my aunt, my grandmother, gave me covid to my family, all that left me very bad, but I feel that it was for a purpose, I always said that he had a very hard heart r what had happened to me, I did not even feel physical pain, I was very hard, I felt strong and without feelings, I said, but with the infection God had managed to make me bend my knees, I told him everything and he gave me the strength to tell my mother about that I never told her about what they bullied me, I told my mom and she cried because she hadn't known in so many years (now I'm in college) guys, when I told God and my mom I felt so free. I felt very well with a lot of peace, you cannot imagine how great peace, I had not told him about PMO yet but the next day I did it and he told me to ask forgiveness from the Lord and GIVE UP those sins, so I did, but I still had the pain, I went to the urologist who told me that he would give me an antibiotic and some anti-inflammatory that they would inject me, before that they did a CT scan and it was embarrassing but I had to endure it, when they injected me I felt better and I started taking the antibiotic, the first day It was good, I felt tran Quilo I read my bible again, listen to preach, seek God, but the next day at night while I read a book titled "Spiritual Warfare" I read a line that said "You just have to let a little point of light illuminate that heart" I read that and I felt a weight in my heart, a weight so great that I wrote to the doctor and told him what he did to me ??? what did he give me ??? but it was 3 am and I was asleep, I went to my mother's room because I felt that my heart wanted to leave it was beating quite fast it felt very hot, I could not breathe well, I felt that someone was squeezing it, I was scared it never happened to me like this I got to my mom and I started shaking uncontrollably my hands and legs didn't respond to me my heart wanted to leave, but my mom was a Christian and had attended church for many years and in the bible it says that all this PMO or any vice , any sin is a demon and in the bible it says that when the world spirit comes out it causes shouting tremors, then she rebuked in the name of Jesus because God gave us the power to cast them out, almost all night she was praying for me, rebuking Damn it, I couldn't stop shaking I felt like I was going to die, but suddenly I really wanted to cry and began to tell God about PMO's sins, I was on my knees shaking crying, asking for forgiveness, God was very good and he forgave me and freed me from these vices, I know because from that moment I had no desire to PMO or memories, or dreams or thoughts, it is as if that part of my life was erased and he made it possible, the other days I was the same something wrong with trembling we went to the hospital because my hand would not stop shaking and the urologist to whom I had written said that the antibiotics were not strong and gave me the right thing, in the hospital they told me the same, they told me it's anxiety you don't have They told me nothing, they did an electrocardiogram, they gave me serum, they thought I had taken, but they found nothing, I was left without words, it was God at work. I spent a few weeks resting, that was suggested by the doctor, I felt pain down there and a swelling again, we went to another urologist, he said there is nothing, the whole infection happened, I also went to the cardiologist and he told me you have nothing, I went because At night it seemed like an agitation, in the end I thought and said if God freed me from PMO why can't he heal me from this? I rebuked these demons and these pains, then they left, to this day I feel better and very well and all that, thank God, without him I would not have been able to do it.


Friend, Friend, I know that you are on this website because you no longer want to continue with your life that you have been leading up to now, I know that you have tried many times and many times you have relapsed, if you try with your strength no matter how much Be the motivation, the objectives, the commitment, I cannot myself read several books on improvement and leadership but nothing helped me, I looked at how to leave PMO on YouTube I could not either, I read in forums, I read other testimonies, I read stories in NoFap, on the internet, but I was hurt. The only one who can heal and free you is God friends, I tell you this because he served me, after so many attempts he set me free in a few hours. You can tell him everything you've been through, if you have traumas, fears, a bad past, tell God. All you have to do is close your eyes and start talking to him as if you were talking to your friend, tell everything, even how you started in PMO how you do it, where you do it, what you feel when you do it, tell him if you try to quit , everything you can tell him. Once you tell them you have to renounce those sins, do so saying "I renounce these sins that I have confessed in the name of Jesus !!!" you must do it with authority believing that you are already free. You must also cast out those demons that have entered your life. You do that by saying "Every demon that has entered my life for these sins I cast out in the name of Jesus !!!!" With these words believing and trying to seek God every day you can be free, if you have a bible read it, it worked for me and I share it with you now.

 

Day 2
A little part of me is worried, because it's usually day 2-3 when I relapse. But this attempt at breaking free feels more genuine then most. I feel more then ever that I can do this!

 

I'm so sorry. this is a hurdle, but not one you can't overcome. Keep up the fight

 

Try meditation mate. It will really help calm things down. But they key is doing it everyday to reign the monkey brain in!