Accountability for All

day 5 of no P. feeling positive.

thanks to all who commented, messaged, and liked.

stay strong strong everyone. you are not alone!!

"The only way out is through."
- Robert Frost

 

if you can, go outside and describe what you see, feel, hear, taste, and smell. write down or post here if you would like. mindfulness technique that helps with all types of challenges.

 

Day 34 today and i PMO'd today. The urge was really getting strong and i had nothing productive to do so ya fell right into the trap gotta control this habit now but on the brighter side i created a new record of 34 days without PMO'ing even a single time now my next goal from rn right here would be to break my previous record and create a new one even if it's just one day extra i e 35 days, remember the ultimate goal here is 90 days.
EAT, SLEEP, GOAL, REPEAT!
BTW,Its Day 0 now as the clock resets for me.

 

checkin'

today was a weird day
will explain in detail in a bit

 

Day 2 of NoFap. I've been struggling with this addiction for almost a decade now. I've tried multiple times to stop and my longest streak was 14 days. I'm now focusing on getting to 90 days but i'm never going to consume porn ever again. Using this thread as accountability for myself for the next 90 days because I know that i can do it. I read the book YBOP in these couple days and I have recognized I could not live the life I wanted because of my porn addiction. I'm ready to go through the ups and downs of this journey. I know it's going to be a hard journey but I know it's going to be worth it. I want to have the strength to endure hard obstacles, not live an easy life.

 

Okay, I relapsed last nicht, and I was so close to 90 dans, althought it was my longest streaker ever. Because I almost need to work, I will give the reasons tomorrow, I really want to talk about it, so I can deal with it and make it on NoFap

 

I have just been continuing to fuck up, relapse.... After relapse...
So reviewing my yellow book of the record of using porn for 40 years I did do it last night but I didn't do it first thing this morning... Sorry to you all, and to myself....

 

Can i join this group ?

 

late Saturday night, I had my first slip up since having joined this group.

disappointing, but I feel I am learning more with each attempt. I have also now may viewing trigger content virtually impossible on my iphone (usual medium of choice)
also reminded of the gratitude I feel for having found this group, and thus, not having to go at it alone.

wishing everyone here a positive, productive, and mindful day!!

 

just did the same ! changing my content settings requires password that I had my friend make for me. solid step!

 

Right on !

 

I am finally able to find time(I mean ample amount of time) to have more focus on self care instead of giving up on anxiety and isolation. My holidays have finally began but far more importantly I will be able to finally live out of isolation and ESPECIALLY internet from my pc and my phone. I am thinking about trying to do at least 15 to 30 days within these holidays. I have had enough number of relapses already I ready to regularly post and take more self care that has heavily influenced badly into my emotions for so many years. I don't think my current life is any where stable and I was too much isolation during exams living in a hostel alone mostly unlike home. I have recently relaped yesterdays and I need to work on my list but that's what lears me into porn.

 

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Checking in!!! Finished reading a book called The 5 Love Languages!!!

 

Day 1.Been a decent day spending more time with my friends in college. I think this is one of the few big things that should motivate me because seclusion had been a major factor towards my addiction

 

Yes I'm finally admitting to myself I kind of need this on my phone I don't have a laptop anymore and my tablet broke so all the porn I look at is just on my phone....
And I do have those reaction triggers that are not huge but if I just had another moment to relax cuz I have to find a workaround to get past the blocking stuff on my phone it would help me...
Sometimes it would be long enough for me to recover and do some of my antidotes and actually stop.
Thanks for this...

 

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