Accountability for All

Had another wet dream today. I have relapsed this time bc I was watching a show earlier knowingly that it has porn. I didn't scroll down and right to watch again. I didn't made myself believe that I relapsed but after sleeping this afternoon I had another wetdream which opened my eyes that I had binged porn so I relpased. It so fucking hard when you just don't want to make things worse(for me) but you still relapse
Have to have this awareness of the fact that once I consciously make this decisions then I relapsed.

 

Day 0 - Today I lost because yesterday I saw some stuff at twitter. Now I`m having therapy sessions 3 days per month. I improved a lot my blocker system on my computer and phone, but sometimes it seems like nothing changes. I`ll try to create the habit of being accountable with you guys daily.

 

Day 6
Hitting the tail end of the weekend. It's a tough fight for me every day. Some days are uneventful and other days I feel like I'm falling off the face of the earth.

I made a little drawing of myself with big angel wings and I'm adding a feather for every day I continue my fapstinence. It helps motivate me because my dream is to fly.
I am using shuffling practice as a coping skill, reading, learning a language. I don't know what will happen next, I do know I'm trying my best. If you're reading this I hope you're trying your best too, solidarity my friends. Til' tomorrow.

 

Check in - I`m doing fine. I wont count days anymore, it fucks if my head. I`ll only count my wins. And I`ll buy 10 books (perhaps more) about this addiction, and see what happens.

 

Checking in. Doing all right so far. You all got this!

 

really need a accountability partner

 

Today I`ll buy the 10 books about this fucking addiction. Let`s see what happens. I`m doing fine by the way. Good luck to you all!

 

Binged and relapsed again today, shit is not working right now by any means

 

Check in - I had a session of PMO yesterday.

 

Good luck man! I think there are some threads where you can find an individual acc. partner or a acc. group if you'd like one!

 

I survived a week so far. Been a month since I've gotten this far - here is to a 2nd week *crosses fingers*

 

I was away for a very long time.. But now i want to discipline myself properly. Hope you guys are doing well and achieving greatness....
Day 0

 

Let`s be partners then.

 

Check in - I won yesterday, I bought 10 books about this addiction and I`ll have 7 therapy sessions per month to overcome the roots of this crap. Wish me luck.

 

Day 1
Feeling great, slept like a baby yesterday, didn't watch P to sleep. Hope you all are doing great...

 

Checkin'

 

Checkin - All good, I`m have away through a book called The Por* Trap. It`s good, I recommend.

 

lets give it a shot again! day 0.

 

Relapsed

Got to 10 days - one of my records. Would like to get to 14+.

We got this guys!

 

I`m feeling hate. Dealing with this addiction is an eternal emotional e physical torture, it`s so overwhelming and crippling. I`m also dealing with severe pain in my ears for a few months now and man... It`s hard dealing with all that.

But I won`t quit, I read and applied 2 E-books about this addiction. Now I bought 10 books about it, and next month I`ll buy another course and study about this shit hours and hours per day. Not only that, I`m having therapy sessions 3 times per month but I`ll increase to 7. Wish me luck guys.

By the way, those are the 10 books that I`ll read...
1.The Por* Trap.
2.Your brain on Por*
3.Treating pornoghrap* addiction - The essential tools for recovery.
4.Se* and Por* addiction healing and recovery.
5.A gentle step through the twelve steps - The classical guide for all people in the process of recovery.
6.Wack - addicted to internet por*
7.In the shadows of the net - free of compulsive online sexual behavior.
8.Fortify - the fighter`s guide to overcoming pornograph* addiction.
9.The por* myth - exposing the reality behind the fantasy of pornograph*
10.Sexual detox - a guide for guys who are sick of porn*

Yep, buying all those books was the best decision I ever made about quitting por*. I highly recommend guys.