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Discussion in 'Accountability Partners' started by corylife, Dec 22, 2019.

  1. WalktheLine

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    Yep I need every time I have any fantasy to say " that's not mine".
    I say that because there is no woman there.. The fantasy and image is just shit in my mind, so there's no woman there who can be mine, so this shit in my head is " not mine".... It can not be because it is not real.
    I have to say this everytime fantasies arise....
    I have to look at my yellow book (Which is my record of failures and relapses for the last 3 years), very first thing everyday.
    I have to do four mantra meditations everyday...
    I have to do a short run every day. So, if I don't do all of these things everyday I'm basically lost....
     
  2. higor pereira araujo

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    thanks, man
     
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  3. higor pereira araujo

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    Sure thing man. Actually I spent 2 months without using it, the thing is, I found loopholes on my laptop and relapsed several times, but I already fixed, I think I`m good to go.
     
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  4. higor pereira araujo

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    I relapsed yesterday. I already reinforced my blockers at my laptop but if this shit does not work I`ll stop using internet at home altogether.

    The good thing is, I`m a lot tougher now, I relapsed a lot but I did not beat myself up and it didn`t affected me so much emotionally. Anyway, thanks for the support guys.
     
  5. higor pereira araujo

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    I did win yesterday, and some triggers appeared to try to dissuade me from keep going with my reboot, but through suppressing resolve, I avoided them like a pro. And I was very productive.

    Today I had a hard time sleeping, because it took more than an hour to drift off and I woke at the middle of the night.
     
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  6. higor pereira araujo

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    checking in - I`m doing good. I`m part of a group in WhatsApp and it has the number of a girl I`m interested, so I`ll talk to her today and see what happens.
     
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  7. msbhai

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    Looking forward for my recovery
    any help is appreaciated
     
  8. ZenYogi

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    Bah gonna die if I keep fapping. I must be built different cause the doctor says
    ejaculation is fine but I feel like crap for hours after I do it -_-

    theblife described in Brahmacharya is the only thing that seems to be working for me I’m so tired from relapsing today gotta keep trying
     
  9. jakeFromStateFarm117

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    I feel you man. I went not quite 20 days, but 18. And then went back to twice a week -_-

    Just relapsed today. I'm wrote a bunch of spiritual and scientific reasons to stop watching porn a month ago - I'm going to read them every morning and see if that can help my mindset.
     
  10. ARCEUS

    ARCEUS Fapstronaut

    Doctor's and science is stupid in the case of M, they say its healthy and promotes doing it, but we, as a sufferer know how harmful and destroying it is.
     
  11. Checkin'. Having a rough day today. No urges but I wasn't able to have a good day's mediation and other exercises. Wasn't able to concentrate.
     
  12. ZenYogi

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    I agree. Thanks arceus. M IS horrible for us. It’s like how they say one glass of wine a day is healthy but give it to an alcoholic and they could be dead in a week. M is that dangerous for us.
     
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  13. ZenYogi

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    Day 1

    still alive darn it. I’m not giving up!!!! :mad: determined face. I’m gonna make it a year! Screw you PMO. I’m going to stay clean off your evil temptations.

    focusing on studying. Gonna go to the library if my Covid test reads negative and hit the books harder than Gohan :)
     
  14. higor pereira araujo

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    Checking - I`ve been sleep deprived for two weeks now, I just don`t sleep well anymore. But I`m fine.
     
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  15. ZenYogi

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    Sorry about that sleep. Not trying to tell you what to do or anything. But I tried ehypnosis dot com the one hour adv ver for sleep and use it often to sleep now

    kinda lame crutch but whatever it’s better than sleeping pills heh
     
  16. ZenYogi

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    Day 1

    relapse prevention

    I know it can happen to the best of us. I had a good few months streak and left thinking I had it down.

    Here I am at day one, rejoining a accountability call group. $40 for once a week group video call. I didn’t wanna pay but I need it. Like badly. I couldn’t get the job done on the forums alone

    when I see people with year plus streaks delete account. I just think, who knows if they’ll stay clean?

    I was doing great and on a long streak when boom life happened.

    A friend texted me triggering stuff, I had sex with my new gf and O happened then chaser effect led to M led to P. Failing never felt so bad. Makes me feel like dying sometimes tbh. I don’t wanna suffer like this. It’s a disease. Addiction to PMO is an illness and we’re all dying or recovering from it 24/7.365. I won’t let it grab a hold of me. Drag me down into the depths of heck and to an early grave. I won’t look back on my life and say, I never lived.

    I spent my whole life running from life. Hiding in unhealthy addictions. Killing myself slowly with PMO like I used to with video games and substance use. But I’m not doing that anymore. I’ll stand and face this thing.


    I am the lotus to overcome all challenges and I will overcome PMO, schizoaffective disorder and my anxiety.

    I’M NOT GOING DOWN WITHOUT A FIGHT!

    You’ll have to pry my one day streak from my cold dead hands because I’m not letting go. >:| PMO life whoever and whatever might threaten my streak. I’m gonna beat you. Enjoy second place cause I’m staying on top forever. Let’s go. Let’s fight. May the best being win.
     
  17. ThisSideThatSide

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  18. higor pereira araujo

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    Thanks
     
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  19. higor pereira araujo

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    Checking in - I won yesterday, and I`m currently talking with a girl I`m interest, which is rare. Anyway, I`m not fine, I have to deal with porn addiction and a bunch of other problems I have, It`s hard... but I`m strong enough to deal with any problem, baby. STAY HARD.
     
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