Accountability for All <UPDATED DAILY> <AWARDS>

Day 1
Making no time for a relapse, I will get stuff done today.

 

I relapsed today, but I identified a trigger from yesterday that may have contributed to it.

Also does anyone experience like a wave of tiredness/lethargy after a relapse? That's another thing i'm writing in my journal about the negative effects.

 

Relapsed today while surfing instagram. I am in a lot of stress today due to the portfolio and on top of it this relapse came so predictably due to stress. Honestly this is a lot to gobble for me because i have stretched it so long after a year.

 

Checking in for the first time.

I am starting a new streak from today (00:00). Yesterday I relapsed twice in a row, once in my bedroom with porn (PMO) and then the very next hour in the shower (MO). I slept through the whole day after that. Before midnight, late at night I looked at porn (P) for an hour again. So all in all three relapses of kinds in one day. I can't take it anymore, being like this. It's eating me alive and I would really do with an accountability group which helps each other grow. I have always fought this battle alone with my mental strength but i am at a place right now in my life where it's nothing but a mess. I don't want to be this guy I have become, I feel trapped. I want to strive for a clean streak of 30 days and plus, that's my target. I have done it before and beyond. I believe I can do it too, I just need a little push getting over the line. So any and all help is greatly appreciated. I'll try and stay connected with others as much as possible.

Day 1

 

Checking in

 

Going great bro

 

Day 5
My mid terms started today. And I was busy in preparation for last two days.
I have been working round 5-6 hours every day. Moreover, doing workout daily in gym.
There was no more room for PMO in this rought life style.
But I know urges will back soon....
And I'm ready to tackle them..
Stay hard!

 

Day 1 complete
I didn't do anything productive per se as I am trying to fix my schedule first. I slept at 12 pm and woke up at 9:30 pm which is not healthy by any means. So my goal for today is to stay awake the whole day and then sleep at night so I can continue going to the gym from tomorrow onwards. Peace out.

 

Thanks bro back at you

 

Day 57

woo 2.5 hours of studying in the books today. My goal is 5+ for the week and it's only monday. So let's go may I get 2.5 hours everyday! Or even 3 hours! hoorah.

Once I pass this exam I may checkout a TKD school. But, I also might just spend my extra time reading books I love my books

Zen Buddhism, Martial Arts, and Self Help are my favorite three genres. Manga and Anime are also great if I'm feeling tired of reading for the day.

I found books by anderson silva, randy couture, bj penn, jack dempsy and bruce lee that give instructions on how to fight. All those books would cost about $70 if you got used copies. I found one on peek a boo boxing by...some guy? lol. It's the only book on the subject with any merit so I'm trying it out.

Bj's book is great. Talks about MMA basics. developing your style. Staying in shape year round. Cross training etc. I very much like these books yes.

Ah I feel much more positive about myself and my life when I get studying time in. Good focused time yea that's right. Hope I can pass the exam hope I can get the date scheduled in mid january to test.

Finished BAKI on netflix. It's a good series. Guess Seven Deadly Sins, One Punch Man and SAO are next

 

Checking in!

 

Checking in - Yesterday I approached my crush from the bus, but I found out she`s underage, so now we`re friends. That was a massive win for me, approaching women is hard.

 

Day 57

completed seven deadly sins

into one punch man

looking for three hours study time today. Active rest day so short walk, little floor yoga and foam roll should be good

setting my intention to read paper books and watch anime. No other video stuffs or e books

 

Day 6.

 

Hi everyone! It's my first time here.
I can't exactly remember when I started it's been around 18 days.
I stopped watching porn again, after around a year of continous relapses.
Recently I watched some videos about people successfully quitting addiction, and it was a common theme, that they had some accountability partner to talk to.
Since atm I don't have a partner, I just post here and read everyone else's posts.

It's kind of a stressful time in the university. So atm I'm struggling a bit with the things that I replace my addiction with, like drinking and smoking. It's not too bad, but I would like to stop smoking and reduce my alcohol consumption in the future.

Hope you're having a great day.

 

Checkin'

 

Binged relapsed again this morning

 

Checking in - I`m doing good. But I gotta be careful with some apps on my phone.

 

Day 58

Rest day today. Seeing the so today . Got to take it easy. Just rest as much as my body wants to sleep.

read the dharma and my mindfulness book. Watch anime. Take a short walk or two. Time to meditate in the morning and evening, get to bed early and either read dharma or meditate more before bed

yes anime dharma these are the most restorative media for me. Other stuff is not. Especially the espn site I’ll be removing that app. I don’t want to use Disney+ or Hulu. Just Crunchyroll and my gfs Netflix is enough for me

keeps me on the anime heh

honestly I may study if I want to. I like to study now. I’ve really come full circle from my rebellious younger days .

 

relapse.