Accountability for All

Just relapsed today. After so many days after I opened the internet service on my laptop for working from home only to relapse due to my compulsive behavior to fap in front of my lap led me to relapse. I was edging even before searching for porn when this happened. The amount of slips i had in the last few days also contributed to such setback. I will start over again. Otherwise i will loop around the chaser effect hiding with shame and guilt. Its very important I don't let my emotions took over me.
 
Yes having a relapse Journal really helps I don't think I really made progress until I could really track, for the last 3 years every single error and piece of stupidity that cost me so much... I look at that book every day first thing in the morning and it really helps me

higor pereira araujo said:
PS: I'm keeping a relapse prevention journal, and I'm loving it. I write down my emotions throughout the day, I dig deep to know the roots of them and how they affect my behaviors. I also take notes on my withdrawal symptoms, victories of the day, exercises that my counselor tells me to do and so on and so forth.
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Checkin'. Been on detox for last couple of days. I have to write some affirmations and paste it on the wall that I have learned over the last couple of days. Over the last couple of days i actually relapses through an unexpected trigger which is Spotify. It was really surprising and i wasnt even prepared for that. Anyway i improvised and increased my limitations a lot. So i might not be posting here regularly for now.
 
higor pereira araujo said:
I went over 20 days abstinence but now I`m relapsing all the time, fuck, I`m trying to get myself together but this week my life became unmanageable again.
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I have shared the same sentiment bro. Honestly if I were you it could have been the same. Reality check is needed. Perhaps it's best to detox yourself from your phone entirely for now.
 
Yep I need every time I have any fantasy to say " that's not mine".
I say that because there is no woman there.. The fantasy and image is just shit in my mind, so there's no woman there who can be mine, so this shit in my head is " not mine".... It can not be because it is not real.
I have to say this everytime fantasies arise....
I have to look at my yellow book (Which is my record of failures and relapses for the last 3 years), very first thing everyday.
I have to do four mantra meditations everyday...
I have to do a short run every day. So, if I don't do all of these things everyday I'm basically lost....
higor pereira araujo said:
I went over 20 days abstinence but now I`m relapsing all the time, fuck, I`m trying to get myself together but this week my life became unmanageable again.
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WalktheLine said:
Yep I need every time I have any fantasy to say " that's not mine".
I say that because there is no woman there.. The fantasy and image is just shit in my mind, so there's no woman there who can be mine, so this shit in my head is " not mine".... It can not be because it is not real.
I have to say this everytime fantasies arise....
I have to look at my yellow book (Which is my record of failures and relapses for the last 3 years), very first thing everyday.
I have to do four mantra meditations everyday...
I have to do a short run every day. So, if I don't do all of these things everyday I'm basically lost....
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thanks, man
 
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