Accountability for All

Day 575

Had a good day up until dinner. I cooked salmon lasagna, but I suspect that the salmon had expired. It gave me quite some intestinal pain in the evening.

Workout: day 467
32 pre-shower push ups. Shoulder workout

Walking: day 477
Did a 34 minute walk in the afternoon and a short stroll in the evening. 11 min bike ride.

Screentime: day 477
Total screentime yesterday was 3:45 from which 2:48 hours on Whatsapp (apping/calling with my family) and 0:31 hours on the Internet (responded on NoFap, following the recipe)

Lying: day 29
Listen to your girl and express your feelings with her. Practice being NVC with her so that you have neutral conversations.

Meditation: day 565
Meditated for 28 minutes

Language learning: day 133
I practiced 6 sentences in Turkish and 7 minutes of study. When studying Turkish, I actually write down a short story of a few lines. I now measure it in minutes, but I will switch to doing 4 lines of writing from now on. It's easier.

PMO study: day 575
Read yesterday in Worthy of her Trust about spiritual leadership. The book states that our partners are waiting for spiritual leadership from us. They are also waiting until the moment that we align our life with that strength and can lead ourselves and the woman into the future.

Sleep: day 433
Slept at 23:40. Feel okay.

Healthy eating: day 433
Weighed at 93,1 kg again! Had salmon lasagne and I suspect that I had mild food poisoning.

Cold showers: day 472
Took one cold shower and a warmer shower.
 
Hello
I walked kilometers today in sunlight.
Sleep got stable around 6 hours,30 minutes.
But I woke up again at dawn, unable to get back to sleep.
No energy was recharged. I didn't feel rested when I woke up.
Midle physical and mental energy.
A little cold symptoms today

Mental health
Well, it hasn't improved at all.

Anxiety
I felt little anxiety, chest pain early in the morning, but it lasted less than 30 minutes.
I was able to control my mental focus.

Mood
There was no positive mood change.

Strong urges
No urges.

Weight Control
72.0 kg

Healthy Food
Ending day without wheat
Only natural foods.
No much industrialized,overprocessed foods.

Just one more day.
 
JoeBimbo said:
Had a good day up until dinner. I cooked salmon lasagna, but I suspect that the salmon had expired. It gave me quite some intestinal pain in the evening.
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That sounds awful. Are you okay? Hope it passes through your system soon so you’re back to feeling like you normally would. Dealing with this addiction is hard enough, I can only imagine how tough it would be with food poisoning on top of it.
Chrispl said:
On day 3 today. Tomorrow I'll be doing 50 km walk and on Sunday I'll go to a big city to meet up with newly met people to have an open chat about anything and everything :)
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blue-sky-900 said:
Mental health
Well, it hasn't improved at all.
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blue-sky-900 said:
Strong urges
No urges.
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Sam78 said:
That sounds awful. Are you okay? Hope it passes through your system soon so you’re back to feeling like you normally would. Dealing with this addiction is hard enough, I can only imagine how tough it would be with food poisoning on top of it.
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Thanks for your considerate words! I suspect it to be the gluten in my lasagna layers. I ate a lot of dough products the last days and feel that my intestines protest against it
 
Day 576

Picked up my girl early on and had a nice day together. We had a quarrel as I shared some of our difficulties with my mom. I understand that it embarrasses my girl and that it's between us. My ADHD brain sometimes forgets.

Workout: day 468
No push ups, as my inside elbow hurt. Leg workout.

Walking: day 478
Did a 33 minute walk in the afternoon and a short stroll in the evening. No bike ride.

Screentime: day 478
Total screentime yesterday was 2:55 from which 2:22 hours on Whatsapp (apping/calling with my family) and 0:05 hours on the Internet (responded on NoFap)

Lying: day 30
Try to be NVC with your partner. She might start to trigger and the best thing you can do is to ask ‘So you feel frustrated? Do you want me to understand, but feel frustrated because you are not convinced I do?’ From that point a conversation can happen.

Meditation: day 566
Meditated for 20 minutes. Want to get back on the horse. Still remember those good days where I meditated for an hour.

Language learning: day 134
I practiced speaking 6 sentences in Turkish and practiced writing my 3 lines.

PMO study: day 576
Read yesterday in Help.Her.Heal about the introduction of where people are when they buy this book. The writer says that the reader as an addict probably wants to right all wrongs, but that the reality will be that something will happen that will rerupture the already ruptured wound. It is important to become empathetic to the needs of our partner.

Sleep: day 434
Slept at 22:40. Feel okay! No neckache.

Healthy eating: day 434
Weighed at 93,1 kg again!! Had leftover salmon lasagne and I had no issues with my stomach. I suspect something else might be at play and that I am sensitive for the gluten in dough products.

Cold showers: day 473
Took one cold shower and a warmer shower!
 
Hello

I walked kilometers today in sunlight., twice Km than I normally do.
Sleep has improved around 7 hours30 minutes.
But I woke up again at dawn,this time back sleep.
No energy was recharged. I didn't feel rested when I woke up.
Midle physical and mental energy.
A little cold symptoms today

Mental health
Well, it hasn't improved at all.

Anxiety
No anxiety attack,at moment.

Mood
There was no positive mood change.

Strong urges.
No urges.

Healthy Food
Ending day without wheat
Only natural foods.
No much industrialized,overprocessed foods.

Just one more day.
 
Day 577

Had a nice day with my mom and dad. We visited them and we made them food. My mom underwent hip surgery last week and we cooked them food so that they didn't have to cook for a few days. They were really appreciative.

Workout: day 469
Did 30 push ups. No workout

Walking: day 479
Did a 33 minute walk in the afternoon and a 33 min walk in the evening. No bike ride. I'm promoting myself to a 34 min walk from now on! Excited, but also seeing whether this step is not too big.

Screentime: day 479
Total screentime yesterday was 1:21 from which 0:44 hours on Whatsapp (apping/calling with my family) and 0:10 hours on the Internet (responded on NoFap)

Lying: day 31
Be kind and considerate. When losing your patience, take responsibility for your feelings and express them NVC.

Meditation: day 567
Meditated for 60 minutes. I now try to find a way to keep on doing this.

Language learning: day 135
I practiced speaking 6 sentences in Turkish and want to practice 6 simple sentence and 1 complex sentence from now on.

PMO study: day 577
Read in Help.Her.Heal about the nature of empathy. It is not intellectual, but we really need to feel what our partner is feeling.

Sleep: day 435
Slept at 22:30. Feel okay! Slept well.

Healthy eating: day 435
Weighed at 92,5 kg. We had McD for dinner and I want to ration McD for a while.

Cold showers: day 474
Took one cold shower.
 
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