Accountability for All
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Whoop whoop! Great job!
I look at your usual tasks and think it is already quite a lot that you're doing. If you feel that you can do this without effort, then I guess you're on the right path.
I've always enjoyed learning new language. Learning a new language is like learning a new culture
Day 652
Had therapy and it was an okay session. I currently don't have a job and I'm being financially supported by my parents as I'm recovering. The therapist thinks that I should join the job placement program they offer and I have declined thus far. I will do it when I feel ready to do this.
Workout: day 546
Did 26 pre-shower pushups and push ups before my toilet visits. Als did a shoulder workout and jogged for 6 minutes.
Walking: day 555
Took two walks of 38 min.
Screentime: day 555
Total screentime on my smartphone yesterday was 4:13 from which 3:01 hours on Whatsapp (apping/calling with my girl) and 0:16 hours on the Internet (responded on NoFap, was looking for a recipe on the Internet)
Lying: day 106
It is important to take the time to listen to your girl. She might make you angry, but put it aside for the sake of learning.
Meditation: day 652
Meditated for 61 minutes
Language learning: day 213
I did 6 sentences and some book study
PMO study: day 652
Read in YBOP about people who have experienced a giant uplift in their mood and capabilities after having rebooted for 500+ days. I can vouch for the positive effects of a long reboot and have seen massive improvements in cognitive abilities myself.
Sleep: day 510
Slept at 10:20 PM. Woke up one time to go to the toilet.
Healthy eating: day 510
Weighed myself at 93,6 kg again. Had leftover rice, salad and chicken for dinner.
Cold showers: day 545
I had two colder showers yesterday. It took a little bit of time to get used to the cold water again, but the body heats up quite quickly.
Had therapy and it was an okay session. I currently don't have a job and I'm being financially supported by my parents as I'm recovering. The therapist thinks that I should join the job placement program they offer and I have declined thus far. I will do it when I feel ready to do this.
Workout: day 546
Did 26 pre-shower pushups and push ups before my toilet visits. Als did a shoulder workout and jogged for 6 minutes.
Walking: day 555
Took two walks of 38 min.
Screentime: day 555
Total screentime on my smartphone yesterday was 4:13 from which 3:01 hours on Whatsapp (apping/calling with my girl) and 0:16 hours on the Internet (responded on NoFap, was looking for a recipe on the Internet)
Lying: day 106
It is important to take the time to listen to your girl. She might make you angry, but put it aside for the sake of learning.
Meditation: day 652
Meditated for 61 minutes
Language learning: day 213
I did 6 sentences and some book study
PMO study: day 652
Read in YBOP about people who have experienced a giant uplift in their mood and capabilities after having rebooted for 500+ days. I can vouch for the positive effects of a long reboot and have seen massive improvements in cognitive abilities myself.
Sleep: day 510
Slept at 10:20 PM. Woke up one time to go to the toilet.
Healthy eating: day 510
Weighed myself at 93,6 kg again. Had leftover rice, salad and chicken for dinner.
Cold showers: day 545
I had two colder showers yesterday. It took a little bit of time to get used to the cold water again, but the body heats up quite quickly.
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Day 2.
It's way tougher than expected.
This is my quote for today: "The greatest act of rebellion you can commit is to treat your body well, develop a healthy mind, and be happy"
It's way tougher than expected.
This is my quote for today: "The greatest act of rebellion you can commit is to treat your body well, develop a healthy mind, and be happy"
drmr
Fapstronaut
Day 11
I had some urges this morning but managed it.
Starting to block websites that consume my time, esp. Youtube, I had more time and also more fun online.
morning habits:
no wake up urges
tiny breakfast eaten slowly and mindfully
~10 min sun exposure and gratitude journaling
excellent 30-min moderate cardio session
then ~5 min cold shower
30-min reading atomic habits learning about how to break bad habits
tracking my habits and accessing nofap
afternoon
1.5 h focused intense learning session, studying psychology, I am so curious about these topics
sunset
sitting in balcony enjoying the best weather,
writing to dismantle my beliefs about certain fantasies and actions, does this habit give my x or y? how does this habit affect x?etc..it's seems to be working, the idea is to associate the habit with as much negative associations as possible, then my brain is less like to generate cravings toward the habit.
8 min meditation at the scheduled place and time, not 13, it just felt too much for some reason
watched a sitcom called young sheldon,
30 min language study with Duolingo
evening
this is the worst part. I often get into a very bad mood for some reason which prevents me from doing my tasks. I am searching for some ways to overcome this.
wasted a lot of time browsing. searching for something to watch but never choose. maybe i will start anime.
overeat a bit which I think, causes the few urges I had this morning.
no learning
no sleep routine at all
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minimal interactions with others, not even online.
didn't go outside.
still wasting a lot of time..
no memories from this day, again.
overall, it's a good day recovery-wise. there is a room for improvement of course.
I had some urges this morning but managed it.
Starting to block websites that consume my time, esp. Youtube, I had more time and also more fun online.
morning habits:
no wake up urges
tiny breakfast eaten slowly and mindfully
~10 min sun exposure and gratitude journaling
excellent 30-min moderate cardio session
then ~5 min cold shower
30-min reading atomic habits learning about how to break bad habits
tracking my habits and accessing nofap
afternoon
1.5 h focused intense learning session, studying psychology, I am so curious about these topics
sunset
sitting in balcony enjoying the best weather,
writing to dismantle my beliefs about certain fantasies and actions, does this habit give my x or y? how does this habit affect x?etc..it's seems to be working, the idea is to associate the habit with as much negative associations as possible, then my brain is less like to generate cravings toward the habit.
8 min meditation at the scheduled place and time, not 13, it just felt too much for some reason
watched a sitcom called young sheldon,
30 min language study with Duolingo
evening
this is the worst part. I often get into a very bad mood for some reason which prevents me from doing my tasks. I am searching for some ways to overcome this.
wasted a lot of time browsing. searching for something to watch but never choose. maybe i will start anime.
overeat a bit which I think, causes the few urges I had this morning.
no learning
no sleep routine at all
---------------------------
minimal interactions with others, not even online.
didn't go outside.
still wasting a lot of time..
no memories from this day, again.
overall, it's a good day recovery-wise. there is a room for improvement of course.
blue-sky-900
Fapstronaut
Hello
I walked few,today some gray clouds here.
Sleep got stable,around 6 hours.
Very little energy was recharged.No rest.
Low physical and mental energy.
A Midle cold symptoms today
Mental health
Well, it hasn't improved at all.
Anxiety
No anxiety attack,at moment.
Mood
There was no positive mood change.
Strong urges.
No urges.
Healthy Food
Ending day without wheat and sugar
Only natural foods.
No much industrialized, overprocessed foods.
Just one more day
I walked few,today some gray clouds here.
Sleep got stable,around 6 hours.
Very little energy was recharged.No rest.
Low physical and mental energy.
A Midle cold symptoms today
Mental health
Well, it hasn't improved at all.
Anxiety
No anxiety attack,at moment.
Mood
There was no positive mood change.
Strong urges.
No urges.
Healthy Food
Ending day without wheat and sugar
Only natural foods.
No much industrialized, overprocessed foods.
Just one more day
It's very tough, because your brain throws you every curveball it knows of. The most important thing is to know what you want deeply (To overcome this wretched addiction) and why (fill in your motivation here). All other voices are just voices that want to make you use again.
Day 653
Picked up my girl in the morning, and we went to the store where they sell cutlery and products for restaurants. I've been making chocolate the past few days and wanted to see whether they had other kinds of chocolate I can experiment with. I didn't buy anything in the end
Workout: Day 547
Did 27 pre-shower pushups in the morning and 4 push-ups before my toilet visits. Did a chest workout and jogged for 6 minutes.
Walking: day 556
Took one walk of 38 min and a short stroll in the evening.
Screentime: Day 556
Total screentime on my smartphone yesterday was 1:27, from which 0:59 hours on Whatsapp (apping/calling with my girl) and 0:09 hours on the Internet (responded on NoFap)
Lying: day 107
When you promise to do something, do it. Don't give yourself wiggle room to go around it, as it may frustrate your girl. Make an effort to do what you say and also say what you do.
Meditation: day 653
Meditated for 40 minutes
Language learning: day 214
I did 6 sentences, but no book study.
PMO study: day 653
Read in YBOP about guys who have finished a reboot and have found that many of their pre-existing mental ailments (such as anxiety and depression) alleviated greatly.
Sleep: day 511
Slept at 11:00 PM. Woke up one time to go to the toilet, but couldn't really get to sleep anymore.
Healthy eating: day 511
Weighed myself at 93,1 kg. My girl made us sockeye salmon with rice and salad. I've never eaten sockeye salmon before, but it is quite delicious. Had some chocolate throughout the day.
Cold showers: day 546
I had two colder showers yesterday. It's easy to get back to, and I see it is something that I can easily get used to again.
Picked up my girl in the morning, and we went to the store where they sell cutlery and products for restaurants. I've been making chocolate the past few days and wanted to see whether they had other kinds of chocolate I can experiment with. I didn't buy anything in the end
Workout: Day 547
Did 27 pre-shower pushups in the morning and 4 push-ups before my toilet visits. Did a chest workout and jogged for 6 minutes.
Walking: day 556
Took one walk of 38 min and a short stroll in the evening.
Screentime: Day 556
Total screentime on my smartphone yesterday was 1:27, from which 0:59 hours on Whatsapp (apping/calling with my girl) and 0:09 hours on the Internet (responded on NoFap)
Lying: day 107
When you promise to do something, do it. Don't give yourself wiggle room to go around it, as it may frustrate your girl. Make an effort to do what you say and also say what you do.
Meditation: day 653
Meditated for 40 minutes
Language learning: day 214
I did 6 sentences, but no book study.
PMO study: day 653
Read in YBOP about guys who have finished a reboot and have found that many of their pre-existing mental ailments (such as anxiety and depression) alleviated greatly.
Sleep: day 511
Slept at 11:00 PM. Woke up one time to go to the toilet, but couldn't really get to sleep anymore.
Healthy eating: day 511
Weighed myself at 93,1 kg. My girl made us sockeye salmon with rice and salad. I've never eaten sockeye salmon before, but it is quite delicious. Had some chocolate throughout the day.
Cold showers: day 546
I had two colder showers yesterday. It's easy to get back to, and I see it is something that I can easily get used to again.
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Day 3.
Hanging in there. Others have succeeded in this so it's possible for me as well.
Hanging in there. Others have succeeded in this so it's possible for me as well.
blue-sky-900
Fapstronaut
Hello
I walked few, today in sunlight
Sleep got improved around 9 hours
I woke up 1 time in night.
Little energy was recharged.Little rest.
Midle physical and mental energy.
A little cold symptoms today
Mental health
Well, it hasn't improved at all.
Anxiety
No anxiety attack,at moment.
Mood
There was no positive mood change.
Strong urges.
No urges.
Healthy Food
Ending day without wheat,coffee and sugar
Only natural foods.
No much industrialized, overprocessed foods.
Just one more day
I walked few, today in sunlight
Sleep got improved around 9 hours
I woke up 1 time in night.
Little energy was recharged.Little rest.
Midle physical and mental energy.
A little cold symptoms today
Mental health
Well, it hasn't improved at all.
Anxiety
No anxiety attack,at moment.
Mood
There was no positive mood change.
Strong urges.
No urges.
Healthy Food
Ending day without wheat,coffee and sugar
Only natural foods.
No much industrialized, overprocessed foods.
Just one more day
Day 654
Was set to go to my parents yesterday to still celebrate my mom's birthday, but my girl advised me not to go because of the weather. I found it very difficult to take in, but listened anyway. We uncovered that I had many feelings around going to my parents and that I didn't want to let them down. We talked about it and eventually decided to have a nice day in the neighborhood.
Workout: day 548
Did 26 pre-shower pushups in the morning and 4 push-ups before my toilet visits.
Walking: day 557
Took a walk in the city for an hour and a 20 min walk with my girl in the evening.
Screentime: day 557
Total screentime on my smartphone yesterday was 1:19, from which 0:40 hours on Whatsapp (apping/calling with my girl) and 0:15 hours on the Internet (responded on NoFap)
Lying: day 108
Keep room in yourself to listen to your girl. You shouldn't be so hung up on doing something that the other can't get a straw in between. Be more open to the fact that plans may change easily.
Meditation: day 654
Meditated for 20 minutes
Language learning: day 215
I did 6 sentences, but no book study.
PMO study: day 654
Read in YBOP about dopamine, DeltaFosB, and CREB. These three molecules are in a loop when you are addicted. Dopamine says that you want to do something and that something is good while DeltaFosB creates the craving for it. When it is enough, CREB will signal that it is enough and will decrease cravings. In an addict brain, this goes into overdrive. When ‘we’ think we've had enough, we look on the tubes and get an even bigger burst of dopamine. It decreases our dopamine receptors heavily, and we feel empty and drained. This may lead to an increase in anxious or depressed feelings. The cure is to stay away from the high dopamine substances in the first place.
Sleep: day 512
Slept at 11:00 PM. Woke up one time to go to the toilet and fell back to sleep.
Healthy eating: day 512
Weighed myself at 93,6 kg, and weighed 93,4 on average this week. That means that I have, on average, lost almost half a kg in comparison with last week! Something is definitely happening! I made my girl and me risotto with fennel, zucchini and italian cheese for dinner. It is a simple dish, but very delicious.
Cold showers: day 547
I had one colder shower and one warmer shower. When I finished the warmer shower, I turned the dial to cold, so I got a cold splash.
Was set to go to my parents yesterday to still celebrate my mom's birthday, but my girl advised me not to go because of the weather. I found it very difficult to take in, but listened anyway. We uncovered that I had many feelings around going to my parents and that I didn't want to let them down. We talked about it and eventually decided to have a nice day in the neighborhood.
Workout: day 548
Did 26 pre-shower pushups in the morning and 4 push-ups before my toilet visits.
Walking: day 557
Took a walk in the city for an hour and a 20 min walk with my girl in the evening.
Screentime: day 557
Total screentime on my smartphone yesterday was 1:19, from which 0:40 hours on Whatsapp (apping/calling with my girl) and 0:15 hours on the Internet (responded on NoFap)
Lying: day 108
Keep room in yourself to listen to your girl. You shouldn't be so hung up on doing something that the other can't get a straw in between. Be more open to the fact that plans may change easily.
Meditation: day 654
Meditated for 20 minutes
Language learning: day 215
I did 6 sentences, but no book study.
PMO study: day 654
Read in YBOP about dopamine, DeltaFosB, and CREB. These three molecules are in a loop when you are addicted. Dopamine says that you want to do something and that something is good while DeltaFosB creates the craving for it. When it is enough, CREB will signal that it is enough and will decrease cravings. In an addict brain, this goes into overdrive. When ‘we’ think we've had enough, we look on the tubes and get an even bigger burst of dopamine. It decreases our dopamine receptors heavily, and we feel empty and drained. This may lead to an increase in anxious or depressed feelings. The cure is to stay away from the high dopamine substances in the first place.
Sleep: day 512
Slept at 11:00 PM. Woke up one time to go to the toilet and fell back to sleep.
Healthy eating: day 512
Weighed myself at 93,6 kg, and weighed 93,4 on average this week. That means that I have, on average, lost almost half a kg in comparison with last week! Something is definitely happening! I made my girl and me risotto with fennel, zucchini and italian cheese for dinner. It is a simple dish, but very delicious.
Cold showers: day 547
I had one colder shower and one warmer shower. When I finished the warmer shower, I turned the dial to cold, so I got a cold splash.
compersion
Fapstronaut
I’ve been doing well for a few days but I had a dream that I relapsed, and I woke up having an anxiety attack like I was so disappointed and mad at myself but also scared that it actually happened.
I can’t seem to get a good night’s sleep from these nightmares. I think in the back of my mind, I know it’s just gonna happen and I’m just waiting for it, anticipating it, preparing for the moment it does so I feel less disappointment.
I can’t seem to get a good night’s sleep from these nightmares. I think in the back of my mind, I know it’s just gonna happen and I’m just waiting for it, anticipating it, preparing for the moment it does so I feel less disappointment.