Imahustler10
Fapstronaut
Well said !
Accountability for All
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Sorry to hear that bro. Addiction is a difficult nut to crack. I wish you strength to further overcome your addiction. You've done 25 days just now, so you can get back there. It won't be easy, but I believe that you can do it. Where did you slip and what can you learn?
Day 685
Had a good stress free day. Met my girl in the evening for a long walk.
Workout: day 579
Did 25 pre shower push ups and did 4-5 push ups before my toilet visits. Did an workout and walked for 10 min on the treadmill, of which I jogged 8,5 min.
Walking: day 588
Did a 39 min walk in the afternoon and I took an hour walk with my girl in the evening.
Screentime: day 588
Total screentime on my smartphone yesterday was 4:14 from which 3:10 hours on Whatsapp (apping/calling with my girl) and 0:18 hours on the Internet (responded on NoFap)
Lying: day 139
Had some struggle with being open, but was able to listen well to my girl. Got a bit impatient at some moment, but we spoke about this. Now I'm fine.
Meditation: day 685
Meditated for 20 minutes.
Language learning: day 246
I did 6 sentences, but no of book study.
PMO study: day 685
Read in Help.Her.Heal about what happens with the partner when an addict betrays his partner. The partner goes through something called betrayal trauma and needs to heal. This usually also means that the relationship is damaged and needs healing.
Sleep: day 543
Slept at 11PM. Feel okay, a bit tired.
Healthy eating: day 543
I ate sandwiches for breakfast and lunch. Had leftover chicken, rice and salad for dinner. My girl ordered pizza and she insisted that I had 1 slice as well.
Cold showers: day 577
I had one colder and one warmer shower
Had a good stress free day. Met my girl in the evening for a long walk.
Workout: day 579
Did 25 pre shower push ups and did 4-5 push ups before my toilet visits. Did an workout and walked for 10 min on the treadmill, of which I jogged 8,5 min.
Walking: day 588
Did a 39 min walk in the afternoon and I took an hour walk with my girl in the evening.
Screentime: day 588
Total screentime on my smartphone yesterday was 4:14 from which 3:10 hours on Whatsapp (apping/calling with my girl) and 0:18 hours on the Internet (responded on NoFap)
Lying: day 139
Had some struggle with being open, but was able to listen well to my girl. Got a bit impatient at some moment, but we spoke about this. Now I'm fine.
Meditation: day 685
Meditated for 20 minutes.
Language learning: day 246
I did 6 sentences, but no of book study.
PMO study: day 685
Read in Help.Her.Heal about what happens with the partner when an addict betrays his partner. The partner goes through something called betrayal trauma and needs to heal. This usually also means that the relationship is damaged and needs healing.
Sleep: day 543
Slept at 11PM. Feel okay, a bit tired.
Healthy eating: day 543
I ate sandwiches for breakfast and lunch. Had leftover chicken, rice and salad for dinner. My girl ordered pizza and she insisted that I had 1 slice as well.
Cold showers: day 577
I had one colder and one warmer shower
Checking in.
Life is getting better.
I'm slowly healing.
I'm starting to become more "normal". Things that everyday people do. Cook, clean, exercise, spend time with their gf, and so on.
What really helped was my girlfriend putting a screen time password on my phone. No way I can change it or else she'd see that its been changed. I dont know her pass to my phone content settings ^^
Life is getting better.
I'm slowly healing.
I'm starting to become more "normal". Things that everyday people do. Cook, clean, exercise, spend time with their gf, and so on.
What really helped was my girlfriend putting a screen time password on my phone. No way I can change it or else she'd see that its been changed. I dont know her pass to my phone content settings ^^
blue-sky-900
Fapstronaut
It's a great idea.
Having someone to accompany you makes a big difference in a positive way.
blue-sky-900
Fapstronaut
Hello
I walked few today in sunlight
Sleep got stable,around 4,3 hours.
I didn't wake up at night
Little energy was recharged.No rest.
Low physical and mental energy.
A Midle cold symptoms today.
Mental health
Well, it hasn't improved at all.
Anxiety
No anxiety attack,at moment.
Mood
There was no positive mood change.
Strong urges.
I woke up with a very strong desire.
I noticed the physical signs.
I lay in bed, staring at the ceiling, with my hands by my head.
it soon passed.
Brain work out
26 Day
Try to keep up the pace
Healthy Food
Ending day without wheat,coffee and sugar
Just one more day
I walked few today in sunlight
Sleep got stable,around 4,3 hours.
I didn't wake up at night
Little energy was recharged.No rest.
Low physical and mental energy.
A Midle cold symptoms today.
Mental health
Well, it hasn't improved at all.
Anxiety
No anxiety attack,at moment.
Mood
There was no positive mood change.
Strong urges.
I woke up with a very strong desire.
I noticed the physical signs.
I lay in bed, staring at the ceiling, with my hands by my head.
it soon passed.
Brain work out
26 Day
Try to keep up the pace
Healthy Food
Ending day without wheat,coffee and sugar
Just one more day
Imahustler10
Fapstronaut
Day 12
Started my day 3 hours before dawn with a full body explosive workout at the gym.
Did my stretching and mobility afterwards.
Went back home, cooked my breakfast (tried the chlorella powder for the first time) did some breathing exercises to energize myself and prepare for studying. I didn’t study much ( i studied for an hour).
I went to college and stayed there for 5 hours.
The moment i entered my apartment i felt drained from all my energy, i laid back on the couch and watched some netflix. I went to bed to take a power nap, but unfortunately the power nap became a 3 hour sleep. I woke up trying to catch up with the most important tasks in my day. Thankfully this is the one before the last (journaling here). And that was pretty much it for today.
I have a serious question here:
Since i stopped PMO i didn’t have any strong urges, i don’t think i’ve had any so far and it’s starting to scare me a bit you know like there is something wrong with me. Should i be worried or is it normal ?
Started my day 3 hours before dawn with a full body explosive workout at the gym.
Did my stretching and mobility afterwards.
Went back home, cooked my breakfast (tried the chlorella powder for the first time) did some breathing exercises to energize myself and prepare for studying. I didn’t study much ( i studied for an hour).
I went to college and stayed there for 5 hours.
The moment i entered my apartment i felt drained from all my energy, i laid back on the couch and watched some netflix. I went to bed to take a power nap, but unfortunately the power nap became a 3 hour sleep. I woke up trying to catch up with the most important tasks in my day. Thankfully this is the one before the last (journaling here). And that was pretty much it for today.
I have a serious question here:
Since i stopped PMO i didn’t have any strong urges, i don’t think i’ve had any so far and it’s starting to scare me a bit you know like there is something wrong with me. Should i be worried or is it normal ?
I dont want to jump to conclusions but this sound like you may have hit your flatline immediately. Starved yourself from dopamine and no urges which is good but this what your going to feel. It happens to everyone. Some sooner than others, some later on. All progress. Keep it up.
Imahustler10
Fapstronaut
Good to know i’m not the only one , Will do
Every streak is different. I have gone over 20 days in the past before strong urges hit from nowhere.
Day 3
Strong urges this morning but I got trough them. My mom visited. It drains my energy so I dont have a lot planned on those days.
Nofap: +3 points (day 3)
Dreams: +1 point (day 1)
School: +0 points.
Workout: No
Walking: Not much
10,000 steps: 0 points
Sleep hygiene: +4 points. Got up around 11.30. I could have started my day at 9 but went back to sleep.
Meditate: +3 points (day 3)
2L water: No
Journal: +1 point.
Weight: +3 points ( 112.7kg. Down 3 kg in total.)
Cold shower: +3 points (day 3)
Gratitude: +4 points ( Day 4)
Keto: + 3 points
Fasting: +13 points (day 13)
Spanish: +1 point (day 536)
Dishes: +2 points. Did do some chores. Not a lot but improved my environment a little.
Laundry: +2 points.
Habit tracker: +1 point
PMO ED: +14 points (day 14)
Apple cider vinegar: +3 points (day 3)
Water bottle refills: None, drank mostly sugarfree soda.
Skin care: +1 point
Make my bed: 0 points
Taking trash: No
Give cat fresh water: +1 point
Brushing cat: +1 point
Brushing teeth: +1 point
Bulletproof coffee: Didnt make one.
Social: +0 points
Reading: Reset my streak.
Misc: +4 points
Total: 68 points
Strong urges this morning but I got trough them. My mom visited. It drains my energy so I dont have a lot planned on those days.
Nofap: +3 points (day 3)
Dreams: +1 point (day 1)
School: +0 points.
Workout: No
Walking: Not much
10,000 steps: 0 points
Sleep hygiene: +4 points. Got up around 11.30. I could have started my day at 9 but went back to sleep.
Meditate: +3 points (day 3)
2L water: No
Journal: +1 point.
Weight: +3 points ( 112.7kg. Down 3 kg in total.)
Cold shower: +3 points (day 3)
Gratitude: +4 points ( Day 4)
Keto: + 3 points
Fasting: +13 points (day 13)
Spanish: +1 point (day 536)
Dishes: +2 points. Did do some chores. Not a lot but improved my environment a little.
Laundry: +2 points.
Habit tracker: +1 point
PMO ED: +14 points (day 14)
Apple cider vinegar: +3 points (day 3)
Water bottle refills: None, drank mostly sugarfree soda.
Skin care: +1 point
Make my bed: 0 points
Taking trash: No
Give cat fresh water: +1 point
Brushing cat: +1 point
Brushing teeth: +1 point
Bulletproof coffee: Didnt make one.
Social: +0 points
Reading: Reset my streak.
Misc: +4 points
Total: 68 points
Enjoy it while it lasts. It might be temporary and everybody might experience something different. I had it as well and I thought that my brain was not yet comprehending what was happening there. I also had zero urges for quite some time, but they catch up with you. Keep on running as fast as you can!
Day 1/2 of no porn...
Brittle bones.... Can't even lift my body from bed... Feeling nervous stopped Kriya meditation for 2days.... My mom went to relatives house I didn't eat for night and morning..... Just one dosa after heavy masturbation energy insufficient.... Just lying like a dead corpse on bed...I CANNOT EXPRESS HOW HELPLESS I AM FEELING IN THIS HANDS OF PORN ADDICTION..... IT PLAYED WITH MY LIFE... DESTROYED MY GOALS MADE ME LOOSER...
Brittle bones.... Can't even lift my body from bed... Feeling nervous stopped Kriya meditation for 2days.... My mom went to relatives house I didn't eat for night and morning..... Just one dosa after heavy masturbation energy insufficient.... Just lying like a dead corpse on bed...I CANNOT EXPRESS HOW HELPLESS I AM FEELING IN THIS HANDS OF PORN ADDICTION..... IT PLAYED WITH MY LIFE... DESTROYED MY GOALS MADE ME LOOSER...
Day 686
Went to the garage in the morning. Had loss of tire pressure and wanted to get it fixed. Mechanic found a 3 inch / 7 cm nail in my tire and was able to get it fixed. Picked up my girl after that and spend a nice day.
Workout: day 580
Did 25 pre shower push ups and did 4-5 push ups before my toilet visits. Did no workout but walked for 10 min on the treadmill, of which I jogged 8 min.
Walking: day 589
Did an hour walk in the wholesaler with my girl in the afternoon and I took a short stroll in the evening.
Screentime: day 589
Total screentime on my smartphone yesterday was 2:14 from which 1:04 hours on Whatsapp (apping/calling with my girl) and 0:11 hours on the Internet (responded on NoFap)
Lying: day 140
Had some struggle with doing my process with my girl. My girl and I spoke last weekend about how I had to go through certain experiences that were uncomfortable. We spoke about it yesterday, but we were not in agreement about what those actions had to be. She told me and it is clear.
Meditation: day 686
Meditated for 25 minutes.
Language learning: day 247
I did 6 sentences, but no book study.
PMO study: day 686
Read in YBOP about that relapse is actually just a few moments away. There can be all kind of things that might give me stress, but PMO isn't going to make anything better.
Sleep: day 544
Slept at 10:45PM. Feel okay, a bit tired.
Healthy eating: day 544
I ate sandwiches for breakfast and lunch. Had Tikka masala for dinner. Made some chocolate and found out that I'm not tempering my chocolates properly. It still melts very quickly when I touch it.
Cold showers: day 578
I had one colder and one warmer shower
Went to the garage in the morning. Had loss of tire pressure and wanted to get it fixed. Mechanic found a 3 inch / 7 cm nail in my tire and was able to get it fixed. Picked up my girl after that and spend a nice day.
Workout: day 580
Did 25 pre shower push ups and did 4-5 push ups before my toilet visits. Did no workout but walked for 10 min on the treadmill, of which I jogged 8 min.
Walking: day 589
Did an hour walk in the wholesaler with my girl in the afternoon and I took a short stroll in the evening.
Screentime: day 589
Total screentime on my smartphone yesterday was 2:14 from which 1:04 hours on Whatsapp (apping/calling with my girl) and 0:11 hours on the Internet (responded on NoFap)
Lying: day 140
Had some struggle with doing my process with my girl. My girl and I spoke last weekend about how I had to go through certain experiences that were uncomfortable. We spoke about it yesterday, but we were not in agreement about what those actions had to be. She told me and it is clear.
Meditation: day 686
Meditated for 25 minutes.
Language learning: day 247
I did 6 sentences, but no book study.
PMO study: day 686
Read in YBOP about that relapse is actually just a few moments away. There can be all kind of things that might give me stress, but PMO isn't going to make anything better.
Sleep: day 544
Slept at 10:45PM. Feel okay, a bit tired.
Healthy eating: day 544
I ate sandwiches for breakfast and lunch. Had Tikka masala for dinner. Made some chocolate and found out that I'm not tempering my chocolates properly. It still melts very quickly when I touch it.
Cold showers: day 578
I had one colder and one warmer shower
Good man keep forward