Accountability for All

day 241 no p
day 11 no pmo
day 1 no pmo + no long fantasy session
day 0 avoid all the key bad habits

Such a happy sunny winter day for me! I am full of joy, confidence and hope :)

I no longer believe in god, at least my religion's version. My current belief is that I don't know whether a god exists or not.
But I can see that I feel good when I practice my religious rituals, also it's such an antidote to sensual pleasures.
So, not sure what to do, practice these rituals in some acceptable way to me to feel good and connect to people around me or seek spirituality somewhere else because that's what I actually need.

One very obvious improvement sign is that I quickly correct my path and stick to recovery after a relapse or a sitback.
Making progress feels good and motivates well.
 
Kedre said:
When I am on long streak I am more compassionate caring towards people but when I watch porn I want to hit damage people which is worst part and karma's.... I want to be liberated soul.... Porn is even stopping my sadhana....
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I can relate to this. Indeed, I am more compassionate towards others and even to myself. And not just that, I feel more, meaning I can feel many emotions and feel them deep, like my intense anger I feel now towards these evil creators of porn who hurt and is hurting millions of people just to make money.
 
Day 13
It wasn’t a good start for the day at all, i woke up late because i couldn’t sleep well at night due to the amount of caffeine i consumed yesterday.
I didn’t workout today my energy levels were very low i don’t know why. I tried to fight through it but i failed. I took more than a nap during the day and i couldn’t focus while studying, but at least i studied something.
Nothing more to say about today, all i can say is i have to start strong tomorrow and make up what i did today and do more.
 
Hello
it's normal to have a fews weeks of flat-line (of course, if that's the case).
I had four weeks of flat-line.
Some people longer, others less.
Imahustler10 said:
Day 12
Started my day 3 hours before dawn with a full body explosive workout at the gym.
Did my stretching and mobility afterwards.
Went back home, cooked my breakfast (tried the chlorella powder for the first time) did some breathing exercises to energize myself and prepare for studying. I didn’t study much ( i studied for an hour).
I went to college and stayed there for 5 hours.
The moment i entered my apartment i felt drained from all my energy, i laid back on the couch and watched some netflix. I went to bed to take a power nap, but unfortunately the power nap became a 3 hour sleep. I woke up trying to catch up with the most important tasks in my day. Thankfully this is the one before the last (journaling here). And that was pretty much it for today.
I have a serious question here:
Since i stopped PMO i didn’t have any strong urges, i don’t think i’ve had any so far and it’s starting to scare me a bit you know like there is something wrong with me. Should i be worried or is it normal ?
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Imahustler10 said:
Day 13
It wasn’t a good start for the day at all, i woke up late because i couldn’t sleep well at night due to the amount of caffeine i consumed yesterday.
I didn’t workout today my energy levels were very low i don’t know why. I tried to fight through it but i failed. I took more than a nap during the day and i couldn’t focus while studying, but at least i studied something.
Nothing more to say about today, all i can say is i have to start strong tomorrow and make up what i did today and do more.
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Maybe it's too much caffeine
Side effect.
Reduce and wait a few days to see improvement
 
Hello
I walked few today
Sleep got improved,around 7 hours.
I woke up 2 time in night.
Little energy was recharged.No rest.
Low physical and mental energy.
A Midle cold symptoms today.

Mental health
Well, it hasn't improved at all.

Anxiety
No anxiety attack,at moment.

Mood
There was no positive mood change.

Strong urges.
I woke up with a strong desire,
I noticed the physical signs.
I lay in bed, staring at the ceiling, with my hands by my head.
it soon passed.

Brain work out
28 Day
Try to keep up the pace

Healthy Food
Ending day without wheat,coffee and sugar
Only natural foods.
No much industrialized, overprocessed foods.

Just one more day
 
I got flu nose I cannot do Pranayama and eyeball pain, headache, nervous weakness shivering, neck pain like current shock very dangerous... I cannot move sidewise when laying down, itch skin, yellow eyes, dandruff and I am dirty without bath for days, semen in urine.... Panik attack even I get scared by fridge sudden sound.... Cannot go outside for daily chores for marketing,,,,,, jobless 24y/o male 25 within 4months.... Failure due to porn....
 
Day 4

Good day. Too tired to elaborate a lot.

Nofap: +4 points (day 4)

Dreams: +2 point (day 2)

School: +20 points (4 hours)

Workout: + 5 points

Walking: +13 points. 13,000 steps

10,000 steps: +10 points

Sleep hygiene: +5 points. Got up around 10.

Meditate: +4 points (day 4)

2L water: +2 points

Journal: +1 point.

Weight: +3 points ( 112.7kg, same as yesterday. Down 3 kg in total.)

Cold shower: +4 points

Gratitude: +2 points

Keto: + 4 points

Fasting: +14 points (day 14)

Spanish: +1 point (day 537)

Dishes: +2 points

Laundry: +2 points.

Habit tracker: +1 point

PMO ED: +15 points (day 15)

Apple cider vinegar: +4 points (day 4)

Water bottle refills: +2 points

Skin care: +1 point

Make my bed: 0 points

Taking trash: No

Give cat fresh water: No. Will tomorrow.

Brushing cat: +1 point

Brushing teeth: +2 points

Bulletproof coffee: Didnt make one.

Social: +0 points

Reading: +1 point. 1 hour audio book. Day 1.

Misc: +4 points ( checking a few things online)

Total: 127 points!
 
Day 687

Had a quiet day. Nothing much to say about it really

Workout: day 581
Did 25 pre shower push ups and did 4-5 push ups before my toilet visits. Did a shoulder workout and walked for 10 min on the treadmill, of which I jogged 8 min.

Walking: day 590
Did a 39 min walk in the afternoon and in the evening.

Screentime: day 590
Total screentime on my smartphone yesterday was 3:40 from which 2:54 hours on Whatsapp (apping/calling with my girl) and 0:13 hours on the Internet (responded on NoFap)

Lying: day 141
Had good contact with my girl. Was tired and she felt a bit weird about it, but I felt much better after eating. We had some good convos.

Meditation: day 687
Meditated for 35 minutes.

Language learning: day 248
I did 6 sentences and some book study.

PMO study: day 687
Read in NVC about receiving the other empathically. I've started to practice this by writing down some emotional statements and writing a response in line with NVC. This turns out to be very learningful.

Sleep: day 545
Slept at 10:15PM. Feel okay, a bit tired.

Healthy eating: day 545
I ate sandwiches for breakfast and lunch. Had leftover Tikka masala for dinner.

Cold showers: day 579
I had one colder and one warmer shower
 
Day 2/3 of no porn.... Hellish body pains, travelled near place through bus I can't able to sit due to back pain and in my front seat lovers are like sleeping on each other which made me feel like hit them or disturb them jealousy..... I am watching 24/7 useless surfing YouTube vids, my family members relatives scolding me of sitting and laying eggs like without job useless fellow, I hate my life,in our home food also basic meals no fruits like running out of money....
 
Kedre said:
Day 2/3 of no porn.... Hellish body pains, travelled near place through bus I can't able to sit due to back pain and in my front seat lovers are like sleeping on each other which made me feel like hit them or disturb them jealousy..... I am watching 24/7 useless surfing YouTube vids, my family members relatives scolding me of sitting and laying eggs like without job useless fellow, I hate my life,in our home food also basic meals no fruits like running out of money....
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Keep pushing. Nofap is the first step in the right direction
 
Day 14
I started the day with a fasted 6km run (8:06/km pace.)
Went back home, had my breakfast, did some box breathing exercise and started studying. My energy level was slightly better today without caffeine. I studied for almost 3 hours. I could not keep up my energy crashed all of a sudden so i took a power nap which translated into 2 hour sleep. I woke up, had another meal and continued studying for an extra hour. I was exhausted physically i don’t know why, but at least i accomplished something today.
 
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