Accountability for All

Hello
I walked today, in sunlight
Sleep got improve around 7 hours
I woke up 1 time in night
Little energy was recharged.Little rest
Little physical and mental energy
Little cold symptoms today

Mental health
Well, it hasn't improved at all

Anxiety
No anxiety attack,at moment

Mood
There was no positive mood

Strong urges
No urges

Brain work out
158 Days
Keep up the pace

Book read challenge
113 Days

Focus time
63 Days

Language learning
63 Days

Meditation
63 Days

Puzzle Time
95 Days

Psyche/Psy knowledge
93 Days done

The musical rhythm practice
32 Days

Healthy Food
Ending day without wheat.
Only natural foods.
No much industrialized, overprocessed foods.

Just one more day
 
Day 819

I'm a bit in a rush and I overslept, so I'll keep it brief. I had altered planning for my habits because of the heat.

Workout: day 714
Didn't do a workout yesterday. Still did 20 pre-shower push-ups in the morning and 5 pre-shower push-ups in the afternoon

Walking: day 722
Did a 30 min walk in afternoon in the scorching sun and did a 46 min walk in the evening.

Screentime: day 722
Total screentime on my smartphone yesterday was 3:43 from which 2:24 hours on Whatsapp (apping/calling with my girl) and 0:41 hours on the Internet (responded on NoFap).

Lying: day 13
My girl ordered some food for me online as a surprise. It was very sweet and considerate of her.

Meditation: day 819
Meditated for 30 minutes.

Language learning: day 381
I spoke 7 compound sentences in Turkish and some book study accordingly.

PMO study: day 819
Read in NVC about observations. It is difficult to observe instead of evaluate. We go into evaluation mode almost instantly and this closes us off from having real connection.

Sleep: day 677
Slept around 11 pm. It was hot, but I could sleep pretty well. Slept through my alarm clock

Healthy eating: day 677
Ate a sandwich and some skyr for breakfast and an omelet for lunch. My girl ordered me French fries and a burger for dinner.

Cold showers: day 716
I had two cold showers
 
Day [146]



What happened today?

  • I woke up at 12:30 pm
  • I had a Basketball shooting workout for an hour
  • I went to the gym and i did ice bath and hot bath for total of 20 minutes
  • I read 10 pages from “ A champion’s mind”
  • I walked outdoor at night for 45 minutes
Mental wins:

  • I became more into prioritizing myself and my overall health
What I need to fix or improve:

  • My screen time needs to be controlled
  • I need to manage my time better to be more productive
 
Hello
I walked today, in sunlight
Sleep got improve around 8 hours
I woke up 1 time in night
Middle energy was recharged.Little rest
Middle physical and mental energy
Little cold symptoms today

Mental health
Well, it hasn't improved at all

Anxiety
No anxiety attack,at moment

Mood
There was no positive mood

Strong urges
No urges

Brain work out
159 Days
Keep up the pace

Book read challenge
114 Days

Focus time
64 Days

Language learning
64 Days

Meditation
64 Days

Puzzle Time
96 Days

Psyche/Psy knowledge
94 Days done

The rhythm practice
33 Days

Healthy Food
Ending day without wheat.
Only natural foods.
No much industrialized, overprocessed foods.

Just one more day
 
2 out

Difficult night. Multiple reasons. Physical pain and insomnia. Insomnia leads to the thought "my night is already ruined, might as well". Dangerous thinking and I caught this pattern for maybe the first time. Willpower is also depleted after a long day. I need to take steps to not end up here in the first place. Too much screen time this evening. Makes me feel bad and keeps me awake. Had a nap around 6 pm. Should have pushed myself to stay awake a little longer. The day was okay, got a little back on track with daily routines and I have plans for tomorrow. But right now I am in a difficult spot. Probably going to relapse but putting it out here ahead of time. Sometimes it works.
 
JoeBimbo said:
How can one give empathy if they don't have it?
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Exactly!
JoeBimbo said:
Sounds like good learnings. Keep on keeping up. No shame in tripping. Remember that you are capable of having a solid streak. It's baby steps forwards
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Thank you, I appreciate the support
corylife said:
checking in, I am down to 198 from my highest of 215 lbs from the beginning of this year. I just want to get to 180 lbs already.
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Congratulations on your progress, sounds like you're about half away there!!

Am currently on a four day slide but have thought through some of the reasons (had the procedure earlier and have felt depressed, anxious, and attacked the last few days and just need to remember and follow through on changing my state by taking a break, reviewing my whys, and implementing my alternative coping measures..
 
Sam78 said:
Am currently on a four day slide but have thought through some of the reasons (had the procedure earlier and have felt depressed, anxious, and attacked the last few days and just need to remember and follow through on changing my state by taking a break, reviewing my whys, and implementing my alternative coping measures
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I see that you have been feeling a lot of tough feelings. Don't mean to impose, so please tell me if I overstep my boundaries, but have you tried some light meditation? A day in which I've done solid meditation is usually a lot easier to handle.
 
Day 820

Had a good day yesterday, because I could build on my pre-existing habits.

Workout: day 715
Did 20 pre-shower push-ups in the morning and 5 pre-shower push-ups in the afternoon. Did my pre-toilet routine and did a shoulder workout.

Walking: day 723
Did a 43 min walk in afternoon and did a 46 min walk in the evening.

Screentime: day 723
Total screentime on my smartphone yesterday was 3:47 from which 2:24 hours on Whatsapp (apping/calling with my girl) and 0:48 hours on the Internet (responded on NoFap).

Lying: day 14
We spoke about me wanting to please people. My little brother has been lonely ever since his gf left him last year and he was hoping to have some successful dates. I was feeling sorry for him and ordered him something. My girlfriend said that it was a nice gesture, but that I have now shown him that it is okay to stay where you are. My brother is a nice guy, but he has (P-related) issues that he is not willing to work with. These issues were probably the reason that he and his gf of ten years broke up last year. He has a light form of autism and is slightly mentally handicapped. Nevertheless, he could still want to turn his life around, but he doesn't want to.

Meditation: day 820
Meditated for 50 minutes.

Language learning: day 382
I spoke 7 compound sentences in Turkish and some book study accordingly.

PMO study: day 820
Read in Help.Her.Heal about the value of making an addiction timeline. The writer says that it helps both addict and betrayed to pinpoint what action caused which feeling.

Sleep: day 678
Slept around 11 pm. I'm still a bit sleepy

Healthy eating: day 678
Ate a sandwich and some skyr for breakfast and an omelet for lunch. Had some curry for dinner.

Cold showers: day 717
I had two cold showers
 
JoeBimbo said:
I see that you have been feeling a lot of tough feelings. Don't mean to impose, so please tell me if I overstep my boundaries, but have you tried some light meditation? A day in which I've done solid meditation is usually a lot easier to handle
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good question, thanks for asking, I am doing breath awareness right now and some yoga to build up towards meditation, might try a short meditation in the morning as I hear that it is quite helpful
 
Sam78 said:
good question, thanks for asking, I am doing breath awareness right now and some yoga to build up towards meditation, might try a short meditation in the morning as I hear that it is quite helpful
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You can start with 3 deep breaths, takes 10 seconds or so. The mind will always have all sorts of excuses not to do it but it is one of the best things you can do to your body and mind. Edit: I have a preference towards yoga. Makes me feel more alive than meditation. Especially in group settings. I heard once that yoga represents the masculine and meditation the feminine. I have no idea how accurate that is but they are two different ways to the same goal.
 
Day [147]



What happened today?

  • i woke up at 11 am
  • I did 45 minute stretching
  • I read 10 pages from “ A champion’s mind”
  • I walked outdoor afternoon for 45 minutes
  • I played video games for an hour
  • Now i’m on my way to a family gathering dinner (it’s quite late at night)
Mental wins:

  • I became more into prioritizing myself and my overall health
What I need to fix or improve:

  • My screen time needs to be controlled
  • I need to manage my time better to be more productive
 
Hello
I walked few today.Gray clouds here
Sleep got worse around 3 hours
Little energy was recharged.Little rest
Little physical and mental energy
Little cold symptoms today

Mental health
Well, it hasn't improved at all

Anxiety
No anxiety attack,at moment

Mood
There was no positive mood

Strong urges
I woke up with a middle energy,right after I opened my eyes.
I noticed the physical signs.
But I had to stay calm and safe, until it passed.
it soon passed.

Brain work out
160 Days
Keep up the pace

Book read challenge
115 Days

Focus time
65 Days

Language learning
65 Days

Meditation
65 Days

Puzzle Time
97 Days

Psyche/Psy knowledge
95 Days done

The rhythm practice
34 Days

Healthy Food
Ending day without wheat.
Only natural foods.
No much industrialized, overprocessed foods.

Just one more day
 
Sam78 said:
good question, thanks for asking, I am doing breath awareness right now and some yoga to build up towards meditation, might try a short meditation in the morning as I hear that it is quite helpful
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Great! Breath awareness is already very important. Becoming aware of your breath is very important in meditation and in life, as all feelings influence your breath/heartrate and vice versa. If you feel tense, taking a few deep breaths will help you to calm down.
 
Day 821

Had a good day yesterday, because I saw my girl and I could do my things. We're celebrating her birthday today and my parents will come over in the afternoon. Still have to clean the house.

Workout: day 716
Did 20 pre-shower push-ups in the morning and 5 pre-shower push-ups in the afternoon. Did my pre-toilet routine. Benched 20 kg / 44 lbs yesterday. I'm a beginner, so I felt pretty good about myself

Walking: day 724
Did an hour's walk in the city while I was getting presents for my girl and did a short stroll in the evening.

Screentime: day 724
Total screentime on my smartphone yesterday was 1:32 from which 0:48 hours on Whatsapp (apping/calling with my girl) and 0:21 hours on the Internet (responded on NoFap).

Lying: day 15
We spoke about the gift I sent to my brother. My girl said that I should be very careful when deciding to do this, because I'm a pleaser. For some reason, I felt bad for my brother and bought him a gift. He appreciated it, but I know it won't change a thing. If anything, he'll only feel more entitled to be sad. Nothing will fundamentally change unless he changes his routine.

Meditation: day 821
Meditated for 30 minutes.

Language learning: day 383
I spoke 7 compound sentences in Turkish and some book study accordingly.

PMO study: day 821
Read in NVC about being needs-sensitive. We have all been trained to be action oriented, but the writer of NVC pleads to become very aware of what the voices in us tell us what we need. Sometimes we need peace and quiet, but we might need stimulation at other times. When we know our needs, we can make clear requests towards others. I've been practicing this for a week now and it makes life so much easier.

Sleep: day 679
Slept around 11 pm. I'm still a bit sleepy

Healthy eating: day 679
Ate a sandwich and some skyr for breakfast and an omelet for lunch. Had leftover curry and a sandwich for dinner.

Cold showers: day 718
I had two cold showers
 
JoeBimbo said:
Day 821

Had a good day yesterday, because I saw my girl and I could do my things. We're celebrating her birthday today and my parents will come over in the afternoon. Still have to clean the house.

Workout: day 716
Did 20 pre-shower push-ups in the morning and 5 pre-shower push-ups in the afternoon. Did my pre-toilet routine. Benched 20 kg / 44 lbs yesterday. I'm a beginner, so I felt pretty good about myself

Walking: day 724
Did an hour's walk in the city while I was getting presents for my girl and did a short stroll in the evening.

Screentime: day 724
Total screentime on my smartphone yesterday was 1:32 from which 0:48 hours on Whatsapp (apping/calling with my girl) and 0:21 hours on the Internet (responded on NoFap).

Lying: day 15
We spoke about the gift I sent to my brother. My girl said that I should be very careful when deciding to do this, because I'm a pleaser. For some reason, I felt bad for my brother and bought him a gift. He appreciated it, but I know it won't change a thing. If anything, he'll only feel more entitled to be sad. Nothing will fundamentally change unless he changes his routine.

Meditation: day 821
Meditated for 30 minutes.

Language learning: day 383
I spoke 7 compound sentences in Turkish and some book study accordingly.

PMO study: day 821
Read in NVC about being needs-sensitive. We have all been trained to be action oriented, but the writer of NVC pleads to become very aware of what the voices in us tell us what we need. Sometimes we need peace and quiet, but we might need stimulation at other times. When we know our needs, we can make clear requests towards others. I've been practicing this for a week now and it makes life so much easier.

Sleep: day 679
Slept around 11 pm. I'm still a bit sleepy

Healthy eating: day 679
Ate a sandwich and some skyr for breakfast and an omelet for lunch. Had leftover curry and a sandwich for dinner.

Cold showers: day 718
I had two cold showers
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Can you tell me more about recognising our needs?
 
Checking in
Day 26
It was really close to relapsing today. I had to pull out an all nighter because of my work. My cravings for porn and food went through of the roof. I fell helpless and depressed without any desire of doing anything healthy. I know the lack of sleep is the main cause, but I just have to do it a few times a week at least at this stage. I have to find a way to function properly even when sleep deprived.
 
Day [148]



What happened today?

  • i woke up at 1 pm
  • I hit the gym right away and did a push workout with a 25 hiit cardio to finish off
  • I read 10 pages from “ A champion’s mind”
  • I did 25 minute in the ice bath
  • I played video games for 2 hours
  • Now i’m taking a late night walk to finish my day
Mental wins:

  • I became more into prioritizing myself and my overall health
  • I really didn’t want to go to the gym today but i did it anyway
What I need to fix or improve:

  • My screen time needs to be controlled
  • I need to manage my time better to be more productive
 
Hello
Until today.I haven't yet been able to combine what I love with work that provides a good financial income.

Of course, I want to be at least a stoic. Maybe I am a little.It would be great to be at that level+
But I'm naturally a analytic, methodical person.

The main problem with insomnia is the many side effects it has on your physical, mental all-health over time, as well as not feeling rested or recharged with the energy you need.
You feel exhausted, and you've been burned out a few times.
I know that burnout can also contribute to insomnia, which is even worse than stress.

It's not a question of adaptation, but of surviving with as little damage as possible.
We were made with the need for quality sleep, and if that doesn't happen soon enough, it has many side effects.

JoeBimbo said:
Sounds like work is also a big stress factor for you. Are you enjoying what you do?

I can imagine that the insomnia may make you feel hopeless at times, but you sound very stoic about it in your posts. I guess that people can even get used to something like insomnia, if it is frequent enough.
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