Accountabilty Thread Roman Christian Fapstronauts

Discussion in 'Accountability Partners' started by balatula, Apr 25, 2019.

  1. Delirious 1 2018

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    Bal, I'm hoping things are going well for you and you just can't reach the computer... I'm sensing some trouble and not hearing from you before the fall! Post soon!
     
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  2. Fada1

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    I'm on day 5. I hope to keep going stronger as I learn and motivate myself from this thread
     
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  3. Delirious 1 2018

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    Welcome, Fada1! Thanks for joining us. I hope you find some wisdom on this site and come to a better understanding of what causes/triggers your behaviors so you may continue to avoid them. I pray for your success and healing as we continue this journey!
     
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  4. balatula

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    Hello guys,
    now I'm finally back on board. I'm back home and will be having limitless access to the Internet again. My journeys were interesting, but now it's time real life starts again. But first of all, @Bright_eyes , sorry to hear you stumbled. But remember, we're in this together and we're all committed to change. So, I'm sure you will overcome this crisis, as many before. @Delirious 1 2018 pointed out, that maybe God is trying to show you that there are other ways to resolve your work problem? Have you given that a thought? @Delirious 1 2018 mate, you are a very wise and considerate brother to all of us. As you wrote above, I did have problems again. But, I did manage to keep away from Porn. I reset my counter anyway, because I got tempted into masturbating (without Porn at least). Nevertheless, I reset my counter because in the end, masturbating steals my time and power and mental prowess as well. I committed myself to God again and confessed my sins. He's forgiven me, again. It's almost unbelievable how gracious our Father is. However, I feel good now. I will start my routine of prayer, work, sports etc. again which will do good. And I will visit here regularly. I really am glad to see new faces again, welcome @Fada1 . Which goals do you seek to achieve, would you mind me asking? Great to be back, brothers, let's stand fast and continue our battle together! God bless you all!
     
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  5. Fada1

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    Thank you Derilious. This is just the beginning of great times to come
     
  6. Fada1

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    @balatula, You are really a nice person and I hope you continue to go as strong as ever. My goals is to go a year fap free. Recover my self confidence and improve my general health. I've always wanted to stop on my own but I seems to always fall back. Now that I'm here, I hope to improve
     
  7. Bright_eyes

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    At the beginning, welcome Fada1, glad to have you here. Be encouraged to reach out for your goals, but have a reasonable approach - "one step at a time". Organize your day, set a healthy routine (for example studying, reading, exercising, houserwork and social life) and learn to balance it. The results will come, sooner or later. Balantula, Delirious - I went to confession yesterday, it was long, but it needed to be that way, I suppose. I gave all my troubles an worries to God, my heart is lighter, I'm going to my Church today for a Rosary prayer at 5.30 PM, gonna remember about you all in my thoughs and prayers. Stay strong and stay safe. Peace.
     
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  8. balatula

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    Great to hear from you, guys. @Bright_eyes , seems you got some confidence back. That's a relief to hear. As far as I'm concerned, I'm still going strong on my promise. I'm doing all right concerning temptation, but at the moment, I feel a bit low on power. I have to get my work and exercise routine back in order, I'm sure I'll benefit a great deal from that. And I'm praying for you guys, that you move forward on your roads towards mental freedom in the Grace of our Lord!
     
  9. balatula

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    How are you guys? I'm having strong urges today, but I will pray, exercise and put in some work at the desk and hope, to beat them by doing so. Hope you have a good day, may the Lord lend you stamina and diligence!
     
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  10. Bright_eyes

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    Good to hear from you Balantula , I was starting to think that this thread died of natural causes. I' m quite ok, recently visited my friends, we were having a little birthday party. My workplace is still difficult, so I'm doing what I can to change my career path. Gonna pray for you today, remember that the urges are only temporary, always been and always are, though they tell you otherwise. Just relax and do your things, keep an orderly routine and focus your attention NOT INSIDE, on your urges and struggles, BUT OUTSIDE, towards your family and frends perhaps. Maybe you would like to visit someone, but you didn't find time recently? It sounds like a pep talk, but we all know that it's easier said than done, right? That's probably the reason we are here. Have faith, you're just two days away from three whole weeks of abstinence, you can do it! Peace
     
  11. balatula

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    Thanks a lot, @Bright_eyes for your post! It really encouraged me to continue the fight!!! It's nice to hear, you're trying to change your work situation!!! That's always something difficult, but I'm sure, God will help you and you'll find a way to resolve this. Sometimes, changes are not only necessary, but beneficial. So was it your birthday recently? As far as I'm concerned, I made it through, Hallelujah! Your prayer helped a lot! As the other thing I'm struggling with besides our common fight, is also concerning my work situation. I'm due to finish a paper until Christmas this Year and I haven't even started yet, to be honest. All this time, I procrastinated and kept busy with other stuff, in order to be able to say to myself: " Well, today you couldn't possibly have started, because you had so much work with this or that...." And as longer I procrastinate this paper, the stronger the urges to give into PM grow. So, I realised, I have to tackle that thing with all my powers, in order to "win both fights." Another example for the theory, that frustration is leading to the consumption of P. But, I thank the Father he showed me the connection and will try hard during the next days not to procrastinate any longer, but to get this work done that's been bugging me for so long. I hope, you guys are all doing fine. As @Bright_eyes said, where are you actually? Still going strong hopefully? Will pray for you all tomorrow at morning service, have a blessed day/night :)
     
  12. balatula

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    Hi there,
    just wanted to give a quick update. I'm still onboard, Urges are currently losing their intensity. Really glad about it. Otherwise, I started praying more, working out more and working for my paper. I thank our holy father for his help in these things. I can feel the difference, now that I've committed myself to the battle again. I'm very thankful for that. I hope you're all doing fine, praying for you, brothers!
     
  13. MonkWarrior

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    Hey Guys, I'm 38yo Catholic guy looking for an AP or group via Telegram. I'm struggling with p and would appreciate help! PM please
     
  14. blessedfreedom

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    Hi I am 58 years old had this addiction for 46 years, married five adult children three with disabilities and five grand-children .I have read most of the journey that you brave men go through. Do not give up because adversity is a friend and an ally. It has being a purgatory here on earth for me, all these years. I had no catholic upbringing ,except the many times God has given me moments of graces. But ,the temptations have being sever .To the point of madness .But through the years I have managed to abstain. At one time for 10 years, just to fall flat in the pits of hell. It is psychologically, mentally bodily draining. But it has a domino affect, the hurt and hate I have for myself spills over to others,. I find it hard to trust, emotionally connect to others.This includes God also, it is a blocking agent between God and me also others. Sorry for posting being long.
     
  15. balatula

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    Don't worry, @blessedfreedom , we're in this thread to listen to each other, comfort each other and make each other stronger. So, your posts can never be too long. Besides, you sound like you have been through a lot within' this fight. I find it unbelievably brave of you, to still continue fighting!!! And yes, I can relate to the feeling of this addiction feeling like some kind of "blocking agent" as you said. But, I firmly believe, that God isn't the one putting any disruption to our connection to him - it's ourselves. By our behaviour, we feel we're not acting the way God has intended for us, and that makes us feel our guilt, and his sadness about that. Nevertheless, if we repent, and try to work at ourselves, the Holy Father welcomes us with open arms into his Grace again. And this my friend, is one of the miracles of faith. Me for exampl, I really had another day of procrastination today. I hate myself for that. However, I will use this rest of time today I have, in order to exercise, get some work done and meet up with some friends, which is all so much better than turning to Porn. Urges are extremely strong today, but I will not give in, and I'm glad I have this community to help me. God bless you all! @MonkWarrior , sorry my man, I don't have telegram, but I'm sure you'll find someone. Anyways, I hope you all have a strong and steady week, may the Lord shine a light into our lives for us to see the path he has chosen for us! Amen
     
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  16. Bright_eyes

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    First of all, welcome MonkWarior and blessedfreedom, hope you guys find our little group helpful and decide to stay here. Balatula, good to know you managed to last strong. That's the way to go, brother. To answer your question, yes, I had my 33rd birthday recently, a week before All Saints Day. I think it's really good you've found the link between procrastination and the urge to use pornography. It makes sense - if we are not doing the things we should be doing, deep inside we know there's a price to pay, so might as well give in to primitive instincts to not think about it. There' s a link I would like to show you:
     
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  17. balatula

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    Hey guys, thank you, @Bright_eyes for the link, the video was very interesting! In fact, the whole channel is very good, I've never come across it before, thank you for posting it here!! Yeah, the Father points out important messages here. Maybe his strategy helps in fighting this, I'll try it definitely. Otherwise, it's been a hard day for me to keep clean. I had some set-backs jobwise, noticed I made some mistakes. That really bothered me and made me angry. The anger piled up and quickly led to strong urges. However, I sat down, logged myself into the forum here and that saved me. I'm very thankful for that. Interesting, now that I reached the 30 days, the Urges become stronger again. Before, it wasn't so hard actually. Maybe it is, because I slowly reach my "high score " from last time, which was 40 days. Anyway, I will pray after logging out and then go straight to the gym. That helps as well. @Bright_eyes , happy birthday! (Although a little late for that) I hope you had a great one! What about your work situation, has there been some progress? What about the others, @dudeface , @Delirious 1 2018 , you still there in this Thread? God bless you all!
     
  18. Tryin' Hard

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    Hey guys, I'm new and I thought I would join.
    I'm currently on day 3 since a relapse and joined right after relapsing. I realized I needed to try something a little different and this site has definitely been helping. I have been struggling with PMO for nearly 6 years - I started fighting rather young.

    The fight hasn't been too hard so far - I've been doing better than I would have before easier than it was before. At the same time, I've been noticing subtle ways the tempter has been trying to weasel his way in. Just gotta keep on keeping on. Can only get worse, amiright?

    I've always liked Fr. Mike and Ascension Present's videos. Thanks @Bright_eyes for sharing!

    My prayers go out for all of you,
    Tryin'
     
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  19. Tryin' Hard

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    Oh, and have all of you guys read that amazing first reading from (last week monday? Last monday?) Romans 11.

    29 For the gifts and the call of God are irrevocable. 30 Just as you were once disobedient to God but now have received mercy because of their disobedience, 31 so they have now been disobedient in order that by the mercy shown to you they also may receive mercy. 32 For God has consigned all men to disobedience, that he may have mercy upon all.

    33 O the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are his judgments and how inscrutable his ways!


    34 “For who has known the mind of the Lord,
    or who has been his counselor?”
    35 “Or who has given a gift to him
    that he might be repaid?”


    36 For from him and through him and to him are all things. To him be glory for ever. Amen.
     
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  20. Bright_eyes

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    Thanks very much Balatula, really appreciate the wishes, man :) And for the first time in months, there's a little light of hope, because a serious clinical research company e-mailed me asking for my work resume, so I'm praying for things to get better. An interesting thing I'd like to share with you, my urges also became stronger after 30 days. In your case Balatula, it may be as you are saying - you're getting closer to your longest streak, and the sin, or addiction won't give up that easy. But it can also be that we're getting closer to the end of 2019, and I've , that if we last strong and PMO free till Christmas, maybe we will see a little miracle in us :) Guys, think about this - we would walk in the new year with our heads held high, because we know what we have acomplished - we fought the good fight and gave it all. And that is what I wish all of us - so we could all live free from shame, with the grace of God and our loved ones by our side every day. That sounds like something really worth enduring some pain along the way, doesn't it? I hope you are all doing well. Stay fit, stay strong, keep fighting.
     
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