Addicted for over 10+ years

You seem to be in a severe bout of depression, my friend. It is a vicious circle that is extremely difficult to get out of. First things first. Don’t masturbate before going to bed. Take some Benadryl or sleep-aid medication or benzodiazepines on a schedule shortly before leaving work. Most importantly, put porn blockers on your devices (Covenant Eyes is the best; it is 15 a month, but well worth ridding yourself of this addiction). Alternatively, you can use K9.

You are going to need to be willing to sacrifice in order to do this. Seek pychological and psychiatric help. The only way to get past this is to take it seriously. You need to be afraid of what could happen should you fail. Best of luck.

 

Bro I'd advice going to gym and doing meditation. They would help a lot here.

 

Bro, I can totally relate to your situation. I'm a 20 year porn addict. Each and every night before bed I had to watch porn, edge for hours, then finally go to sleep. The good news is I managed to get married have 2 kids but the addiction carried on. The longest to date "today" I have been able to go is 8 days. I joined noFap because this time I am serious about quitting. I've noticed dizziness since no porn watching. I'm slightly agitated but not too bad. I have had headaches and eye pressure for 2 days now. I am sure I am withdrawing right now and it makes me angry to know that the porn has induced an unnatural dopamine drip that altered my brain but it is also motivating me to quit even more now. What finally pushed me over the edge to quit is when I learned the science and biology behind what PORN is doing to the physical brain. After watching the youtube videos of the side effects of too much porn, I was able to relate to ALL of them. No motivation to do anything. No inspiration to do anything. I felt like I was just being dragged through life day by day and just making it through each day. That was not living. All I would think about was when I could start my next fix after everyone has gone to bed. The brain fog, the lethargy and just feeling awful. So now that I know the science behind the dopamine drip, I feel I have the ammunition to stop once and for all. I don't want to be addicted to an unnatural forced dopamine drip. You can do this too. Start by watching videos of the harmful effects of porn addiction all the time. I would start a video on my way home for the drive and place the phone out of reach and out of site and juts listen while I drove. This would motivate me and anger me. Especially do this before you go to bed. It will help.

 

Take some sleep aids (not trazedone) like melatonin or Benadryl.
Meditate every night before bed instead of masturbating.

Get web filters and set up OpenDNS family shield on your routers.

When you feel tempted, do some deep squats. They take blood away from other parts of your body because of how much oxygen your legs need.
Plus, you get exercise and something to focus on.

 

Zquil definitely helped me for the 1st few nights but the grogginess the next day was just not worth it for me. Learn about the harmful effects of porn to the physical body and I think that would help. Eye-floaters, lack of motivation, tiredness, ED, hair loss, the list goes on and on and for what? A few seconds of pleasure following a huge waste of time edging. It's time to give it up. Life can't be about this. Porn is a lie and a trick to ruin you.

 

This might sound a bit extreme but maybe you can get yourself a chastity device and so lock your problem away. I use this myself and it helps me a lot. Sure, willpower and meditation might be the ideal way but after being addicted for many years I was not able to follow the ideal path. For some this might look like cheating but in my opinion it's just a physical help to fight against my triggers. And after some time it gets easier and you won't need this kind of help any more.

 

thanks for the message, man!
I am so surprised people get married and have kids and yet continue PMO...which reminds me PMO has nothing to do with me not being in a relationship....it is sth more deep! I need to examine what satisfies me emotionally other than P...what void am I trying to fill with PMO.
thanks for posting man...it makes me think...

 

You're very welcome. There is a very very simple reason your are going to the P and I am willing to bet its the same reason's I did even after having a wife that would have sex swith me, then later after she went to sleep, I would sneak downstairs, and smack the monster for hours to P. The reason is the dopamine drip. Learn about your brain on Porn. It causes an unnatural drip of dopamine that only Porn can provide once you've been addicted. So yeah, great I had sex with my wife but still needed my drug which is only provided by the porn. It's physiology. You my friend are addicted to the drip. Here is the kicker, you don't actually have to give up the O or the M to fix this. Real sex or M without the pixels on the screen will not cause the dopamine addictive drip. You can still get your brain rewired without having to give up the M and O. Just stop the P. Start with that and you will see the difference. But i cannot stress enough of knowing the harmful effects of the eyes seeing porn which causes this drip of dopamine. Think of it as cocaine or heroin. You are a drug addict and don't even know it. This is what helped me say "Eff this" I'm quitting the Porn but not the O. For now Im going hard mode though. No P M or O for at least 3 months. Well that's my goal anyway. Then sex with the wife or the M with my imagination but no more P ever. Done.