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Addicted to Consciousness

Discussion in 'Self Improvement' started by addictedtoconsciousness, Feb 1, 2016.

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  1. Day 7

    Morning all

    After going on a run at 7am for 1 hour, and then spending one hour on self development, a good healthy breakfast I'm off to a good start. I haven't logged in over the weekend as I've been very busy and completely P free. I feel I'm doing good, the more I don't concentrate on such things as "streaks" as I actually forgot what day I was on but knew that its been a while which is a good thing. My sub conciounce notices that I have abstained so I feel my interactions are with better intent and are improved with a life free of PMO. I guess if I was to sum my feeling up its that Im having greater piece of mind, or greater inner peace.

    For any of you who have abstained, its tough, but doesn't that feel good....?

    I don't want to trigger anyone so proceed with caution..

    I have however noticed that my fantasies, ones in my head have become quite strong and if I'm honest noticeably perverse. I believe this to be the effects of my PMO habit that is a 20 year habit, since the age of 13 up until now (33). I think when put like this it is largely understandable but I hope that rebooting my system will help..

    On the plus side my sex life without PMO is massively improved. I have a more healthy, intimate sex life when my life is free of PMO as its very pure and intimate and theres a deep spiritual connection. It almost annoys me the fact that were being lied too. We know that real sex, between two people who love each other is nothing like P. Its healthy to even laugh during sex, caress each other, tell one another we love each other, all of these things do not take place within the online fantasy world.

    So I guess everyday is a new realisation. What is real and what is not?

    For me, a life filled with an attitude where my actions come from love. A good place, not a place of lustfullness, or want/need/desire. If we approach our lives daily with love, we can have the revolution of consciousness that is so much needed.

    Have a good week to anyone reading, and well done for being on this journey, I say this a lot but if your working on self improvement, your in the top 1% of people, the majority of people being asleep (so to speak) and just carrying on regardless.

    Its quite an amazing feat, to recognise your faults, address them and take action daily on improving yourself which increases the quality of not only your life but those around you. Lets not forget this important point as we support each other in what is a daily struggle, where we realise daily the beauty of a life free of PMO!

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  2. buzzlightyear

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    Nice read, made my heart all warm. Or I did it myself because I see you're growing. Keep it up :D
     
  3. Hi All

    Apologies for not signing in, but Im still living life free of PMO. I have however been travelling so its difficult to sign in daily, although I noticed that my struggles whilst travelling were a lot easier than time of the past, probably because I feel I have made a lot of progress this year with regards to realisations of triggers and my general viewpoint of PMO.

    I mean if we were to rate PMO as an experience out of 10, just what number would it receive?
    If we were to rate making love to someone we love out of 10 what would it receive?

    These two experiences are incomparable. The grading system for the merit we give these experiences is very important, you could grade them on how exciting an experience it was, how good you felt after for example. My experiences tell me to grade it on "where does it lead you? and where does it leave you. Option 1, PMO leaves me feeling sad, lonely, ashamed, and guilty. There are thoughts like, is this the best use of my time?
    The second , making love to someone I love, leaves me feeling joyful, love in my heart, I have a bond with someone, I didn't sexualise her, I caressed her and responded both physically and mentally. There is such a huge discrepancy between these two acts and it must be recognised.

    Trigger warning, proceed with caution..

    I also reviewed in my mind, how difficult it is to get a girl to act out sexually like the girls do in P. We all know that on a scale of 1-10 the difficulty in getting a lady, to do the things they do in P movies is probably on the top scale 10. Before she does, you will have had to do the following. See that you are a high value status man, who has a social network of good friends and you live in abundance. You will most probably have taken her on several dates, wined and dined, learnt a lot about her dreams and aspirations. This is a lot of time and energy spent, and Im cutting a long story short, without talking about the spiritual connection that we have with parters, which I believe extremely important.

    Now fast forward to P. All of the above is removed, and were they're in that moment. Now how hard is it to get some P and watch it on a scale of 1-10. Id most probably say for me its 1.

    This for me is a big part of the reason why its so easy. Is this right? most certainly not.

    The saying goes, if its hard, everyone would do it. It is hard to refrain from Porn, because porn is easy to get hold of and easy to consume.

    As a business idea P is great, imagine someone saying the following idea, lets get two really beautiful, good looking people, and film them doing the most filthy sex scenarios possible, what were wired as humans to think about it and get people to watch. That is a great business because it works. But did anyone in this business model stop to think about the effect on their consumer? I would find it very hard to believe...

    Perhaps I've ranted today, but these are all the things within my head the past few days, as I continue my journey and continue to live a P free life, on my biggest streak I've ever done

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  4. buzzlightyear

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    I think you shouldn't want this. Also when you don't a partner becomes more likely to do those things because they think they need to do those things in order to satisfy you, or even better this twisted thing becomes non-extent and whatever happens happens because of the desire to make one another feel loved.

    The importance comes back down to not wanting those things. You are mixing 2 things that shouldn't be mixed, porn and Love shouldn't be mixed. You can figure out what happens when it does, look around and I rest my case.

    Ofcourse you never said you wanted and perhaps you don't but it could be that this writing comes from a subconscious point of view created by our habitual porn use. This is not strange nor wrong at all, it just needs some extra consciousness.

    Your view is changing and it will do so even further as you proceed on this journey. Just make sure you don't poison your mind by looking and consuming P or P subs. Unfortunaltely they are everywhere these days, what makes it a little harder sometimes to undo this whole process. Was it here that I spoke about twisted views? those that exist in movies, views that get very few attention. Yet they sure are damaging to reality, not more than P but perhaps come close to it.

    Our brains don't tell the difference between a movie or reality, we do but our subconscious tend to accept both. Watch what you put in your mouth but also what you feed your thoughts with.

    As a result most humans live in a real word with unreal expectations in almost all aspects of life. This creates an even bigger unhappiness, something we avoid by losing ourselves in P or some other filmed story.

    Enough of this talk, none of the above is bad, none is good. Knowing and being aware of it is important for the individual to make decisions whether he likes to sleep or to be awake. You made yours didn't you? ;)

    One day at a time my friend, one day at a time :)
     

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