I started seeing escorts when I was 35 and still married. My ex never found out, but I fell in love with an escort while I was going through my divorce. We have a very nice connection and even grew to the point of having unprotected sex. I’m sure I’m just a John to her, but she helped me enormously through my divorce and I always went back to her after a rough break-up. I have known her for 6 years now and we still text periodically, but I haven’t visited her in more than a year. I have seen other women, but nothing compared with the woman I fell in love with. I know I need to stop this behavior as I want to have a nice relationship and marry again one day. Porn and drinking drives me to look at the escort sites and I sent an email to one visiting town this weekend, but I’m going to cancel. It’s a hard hobby to give up - I always have been very sexual but find this is preferable to the dating scene.