Addicted to Feminization and Postop porn

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by sickguy, Apr 11, 2021.

  1. sickguy

    sickguy New Fapstronaut

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    Hello, I just discovered this forum a few days ago and have been trying to look for old threads similar to my own situation, but haven't found one exactly like the one I have. I've developed this fetish for mtf feminization when I was 13 even before finding this category of porn. Porn definitely exacerbated this situation afterwards. Unlike most threads I've read where the guy starts envisioning themselves as the women and/or are interested in the penis, I always envision myself as the guy and have no interest in penises; only Postop gets me excited. I actually have no issue with my attraction to transwomen and would date one if I had the chance, but this intense fetish side is starting to affect my attraction to ciswomen where I feel the need to mentally pretend ciswomen as postop transwomen in order to get interested. I've laid off the porn for months, but the urge always returns regardless. Since I developed this addiction before I even discovered this type of porn, I think the problem might be deeper while porn is just the enabler. I feel completely helpless and don't know what to do.
     
    Last edited: Apr 11, 2021
  2. Maybe someone who had experienced it might help. I have no idea. I replied just to say that have a little patience, it takes time to get replies and people are not ignoring you. They just don’t have any idea.
     
  3. mdz

    mdz Fapstronaut

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    Reminds me of myself when I finally realized how addicted I was. I was scared like shit.
    But your postop and feminization fetish is just an escalation from porn, where your brain needs that dopamine high.
    For me it escalated from vanilla porn->porn->femdom->feminization->sissy hypnosis.

    THe best thing you can do is not to overthing about your postop addiction. Just stay away from porn overall and by time your fetish will go away.
    It may take a couple of years.
     
  4. Usernameallowed

    Usernameallowed Fapstronaut

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    Yea sounds like the escalation

    I watched porn for about 18 years girl on girl straight. Bbw. Mature . Watched it all always been highly aroused a functioning .... Now I definitely have weaker functioning from years of abuse my arousal patterns need a break from the shit you watch

    I remember the days when I wasn't addicted to porn be rocking a full hard on flirting with girls and knowing were it's going .

    I remember one night a girl I'd flirt with all the time like grabbing my cock . And I basically. Told.her I was going to.fuck her .... Since that she was dying for it.... grabbing my cock sending her friends to come get me at parties problem was she was going out with one of my mates at the time . Everytime I was with her I was rock.solid .... She started blowing a wine bottle one night and looking me in the eyes and teasing me all night and it wasn't the fake shit.you see on cams she was horny as hell . .. I was literally about to cum in my boxers shorts. And Everytime I've ever got with a girl.or women ive always got compliments on my size I'm not goina say I've got the biggest cock in the world because I don't but for me and my body size I get pretty massive hard-ons
    used to .

    This sounds pretty fucked at the moment but this is my life porn has definitely fucked up

    The more porn I watched over the years without breaks the more I began to fuck up my sensitivity that can become a weird place you can skew anything to create something in your mind .

    After fapping these days it's like death grip

    My genitals are literally holding thinner like it takes time to recover after fapping

    My arousal pattern is fucked and because it becomes a compulsion
     
    Last edited: Apr 15, 2021
  5. mdz

    mdz Fapstronaut

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    Yes same here. I should have understood there was something very wrong when I instead of dating and having sex with a gf that was clearly intrested in me, instead was fapping and fantasizing having sex with her (and that was years before my porn escalation even began).

    Porn really really fucks you up. In some ways its worse than heroin and cocain.
     

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