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Addicted to gay porn...HELP

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Teenajerk, Aug 15, 2020.

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  1. Aug 15, 2020 #1
    Teenajerk

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    Hi, so im a 16 year old boy who was first exposed to porn at 10 years old. I was watching regular straight vanilla porn. This made me super horny but I only watched once every 3 months or so. Fast forward a couple of years, my 15th birthday, I started to masturbate. At first, it was only fantasies about girls and porn. Then after about a coupe of months, I started watching gay porn and noticed how easy it was to ejaculate. I felt huge regret after doing it but it was like I was addicted. Watching two guys doing it made it easier for me to ejaculate. No I have NEVER and I repeat NEVER fallen in love with a boy before, only girls but after I started watching gay porn for a couple of months, I started wanting to jerk off with my friends and when my friends asked to see my dick I would show it and feel this rush of dopamine. I never developed romantic feelings tho, only sexual. So after a while, I started to question my sexuality and thought I was bi. Even jerked off with people on omegle. Also, I sometimes did finger my butt but that got old so I stopped. Now I can’t quit watching gay porn ans straight porn turns me on but not as much as gay porn does. Am I gay? Or is my fetish porn induced? Also how many days of reboot will it take me to forget these thoughts and come back t my initial sexual mind where I had no interest in boys whatsoever. Thank you for reading this I really appreciate it!
     
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  2. Aug 15, 2020 #2
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    Hi @Teenajerk, this sounds like quite a recent development - just 1 year. Bear in mind that during puberty you will feel very horny and the urges to masturbate and watch porn increase. You say you started watching gay porn, but can you remember why? What made you curious to look at two boys having sex?

    Irrespective of how you answer those questions, the solution is the same. That is to stop masturbating to porn of any kind. As your brain stops relying on your orgasms giving you a dopamine rush, your true sexuality will become apparent. Only time will tell if you are straight or bisexual. In the meantime, don't stress over it. Just concentrate on not becoming a slave to your dick. :rolleyes:
     
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    Yes, it's porn-induced. The answer is you'll have to stop watching porn altogether, or the thoughts and actions will just come back, and that's if you manage to recover fully in the first place. Don't take it for granted that you will - you've slid pretty far down a vicious slope. Quit porn and don't look back.
     
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    For exemple, today is my 5th day porn free and I feel like my penis is full (sorry for tmi) and I feel uncomfortable and I just want to ejaculate so I can relax.
     
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  5. Aug 15, 2020 #5
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    Hey man!

    This is definitely porn related. Quit porn and you'll be free.

    Same thing happened to me around your age and once I quit I was fine. I made the mistake of allowing it to happen again so I'm rebooting again.

    I urge you not to go reassurance hunter on the internet or this forum, because there are people out there who are either trolls or completely ignorant to what is happening in your head and will suggest that you are gay. Do not allow them to cause you anxiety.

    You are the only one who truly knows yourself.

    Good luck, my friend : )
     
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    Teenajerk

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    Straight porn was getting boring so one day I was playing gta V and I was like "ok im horny but I dont want to jerk to straight porn cause that is boring so I said why not gay porn"
     
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    Thank you for the tip I really appreciate it! Just a lil question, how many day will it take me to reboot? (How many days did it take you?) were you also watching gay porn?
     
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    OK, I understand. To reiterate, the solution is to stop masturbating to porn. Keep your focus on that and good luck pal. :)
     
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    I don't remember how long it took. Everyones different, no matter how uncomfortable it gets you have to just keep going. For your second answer yes I was.
     
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