Addicted to PMO, escort/review sites,seeing escorts. Can people relate?

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I'm a 26 year old male. I've been using porn since I was 11/12 maybe and was always fascinated by it and the pure shock factor of seeing new genres. I'm been seeing escorts for about 4 years now and the last year have been constantly on the escort websites and review sites planning and researching my next appointment this is what have me the biggest thrill in my addiction.

Porn has definitely impacted in my PIED but I think there is some performance anxiety in there also contributing to that. Porn has given me an unrealistic view on sex and I feel its desensitized my brain for sex with women thus for this reason I want to kick PMO.

I was in a relationship up till late January with the most amazing girl until she found out about me seeing escorts while we were together. understandably we broke up and she was completely destroyed by my Lying and cheating and deceitfulness. I feel so ashamed of my actions and have lost her and perhaps maybe for ever, we are still talking and friends and she is actually supporting me through my addictions which I'm so greatfull for that shes even still talking to me.

Right now I've to just concentrate on me and improving myself. I've been doing CBT sessions over skype and I've website/browser blockers on my laptop and phone. I've been trying to exercise more also, I'm aiming for 5 days a week physical exercise and to meditate everyday.

I look forward to contributing on NoFap and talking to people in similar situations and bouncing ideas off each other.

I'm currently on day 5 of total abstinence of PMO,escort sites,escorts.

peace, stay strong!
 
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Here is just some advice:
First and foremost please take a careful look at each section in the forum, there may be something(s) you will find to be of big help to you.

Secondly I advise you to be active on your profile(as there a few active people in the profile section). Please start by choosing an avatar and then begin posting frequent status posts to show you're active and needing support/encouragement.
The forum has got a neat little feature that shows freshly posted statuses for all users to see.
People will find your profile and give you support.

There’s a portion of people who love communicating in the profile section..(it should be and is )mostly spportive talk but it doesn't hurt to deviate from supportive conversations. It would be great to have you join in and become part of the team!
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Once you receive some support, please be sure and be grateful to the member for the help/support you received and consider giving some in return to anyone you wish.

Thirdly, you should highly consider creating a public journal/reboot log (in the appropriate sectionfor you) to write about your days in depth for us members to follow along on your journey and offer support to you on.

Please start your journal in the correct section and with that, also try your best to post in the correct sections as it is mandatory and would be helpful to the mods who organize the forum. : )

Last but not least: Good luck on your journey here, make sure to really give it a try with all your heart!
 
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