addicted to pornography and masturbation and real sex

Hello everybody. I am 63 years old, married for the second time and addicted to pornography and masturbation since I was 18 years old. As I experienced static pornography, before the Internet, I never had erectile dysfunction, other than my natural age. I take medicines for erectile dysfunction when I need to have sex. But pornography always accompanied me and served as a springboard when I started having sex with prostitutes. I have OCD. There were 134 encounters with prostitutes within 1 year! Sex with prostitutes is "real sex", but for me it was addictive. I left the meeting with prostitutes and masturbated 2, 3 times next! And I needed to see porn to meet the prostitutes. I noticed that my cognition diminished greatly with the recrudescence of my addiction. Finally, last year, I had a double pneumonia that almost killed me. After that, I still went out with prostitutes 8 times and watched even more pornography than before, but now I have to stop. I feel like I'm at my limit. I tried to start, now in March 2 times, but I had relapses. I'm on the third day of the third attempt. I'm reading and translating the book "YourBrainonPorn" into Portuguese and it has helped me to focus on reboot. Thank you. (sorry my bad English: I'm using Google Translator)

 

I am a different addict than most, because at my age, with the help of medications, I have sex without problems, I do not have erection problems. I do not know if this has ever happened to any of you, but I have a lot of nipple sensitivity. During sex, I perfectly control the time to have orgasm, just touch the nipples to get it. In the day to day, in these days of recovery, my nipples become hard, excited, sometimes only the brush of the shirt already excites them and that always led me to masturbation. But I'm still holding on. I also already felt the "hunter effect". After sex, I used to masturbate. Anyway, let's move on.

 

Thank for your reply. Yes, I have been trying to find fabrics that are less harsh. It helps. The worst moments are when I wake up, when testosterone is elevated. I have to get up immediately and start the day. If I stay in bed, the sensation in my nipples increases and it triggers memories of previous sexual intercourse.

 

Thank you. I can avoid watching pornography and masturbating with relative ease. The most difficult at this point is to avoid fantasizing. The images of the memories of real sex, done by me in the past, haunt me at all times, especially, as I said, early in the morning. Today I DREAMED them! Yesterday, I woke up with zero motivation, that is, dopamine zero. But even so, I got dressed and went to the gym to work out. I felt much better later.