Addiction has its own mind

jerking off is the wish to die. that intense relaxation from masturbating is really a desire to be at rest, be free of anxious energy to live, fight, fuck, work. real fucking , and impregnating a girl is a huge act with incredible consequences. you are now in your child and vulnerable, to attack, you have to defend your wife and baby, financially, you are the wife and baby's social status. you rightfully have a intense dread of ACTUALLY fucking because of the immense real world responsibility it actually entails. outside of the delusion of baby-less fornication with birth control or condoms, having sex implies the consquences of being a father and much MORE stress , although one should not see it that way, of course, having children should be focus of your will and life, if you are aggressive enough to want it and tackle it