ADVICE NEEDED PLEASE! Is this a flatline or is this a natural libido returning?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Rebooter47, Jul 6, 2021.

  1. Rebooter47

    Rebooter47 New Fapstronaut

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    Hi everyone, first post on the forum here so sorry if this is in the wrong section.

    I'll try to keep this as brief as possible without leaving out any important details. I'm 22 years old right now, lift weights and do cardio very regularly, am vegetarian and eat a healthy diet, and have healthy testosterone and cholesterol levels (got checked by a doctor recently).

    I was trying and failing to do nofap for around a year and a half and could very rarely last above 10 days. Then one day 10 months ago I'd had enough and just stopped.

    I went for 81 days with no porn, no edging, no PMO, no orgasming with girls, no nothing. During this time I was ridiculously horny all of the time, getting multiple rock hard boners per day with morning and nighttime wood.

    Then after those 81 days, I had sex and it was great. For the next 3 months I had semi-regular sex, every 1-2 weeks on average, libido was still crazy high all of the time.

    Then one day (we're about 5 months ago now) I relapsed (not with porn). Felt absolutely awful afterward as you'd expect. I then relapsed a few times over the next 1.5 months, and during this time all of a sudden my sex drive absolutely disappeared (two of these times were with porn, and that was only to test and see if it brought my sex drive/ability to get boners back, which it didn't). I'd never felt anything like this in my life before and it was horrible. This lasted for around another 1 month, and during this time there were even times when a girl was in front of me and I couldn't get it up (which again, has never happened to me before - I was always a premature ejaculator as opposed to a delayed ejaculator/having erectile dysfunction).

    This leads us to around 2.5 months ago, and since then the sex drive has returned a little bit to the point that I can perform with girls I'm now on a 2.5-month streak of nofap, no PMO, no porn, but still with some semi-regular sex with girls. However, the ridiculously high libido I experienced during the first ~170 days before I relapsed is absolutely nowhere to be seen, I can only get an erection when there is a girl right in front of me (no random boners and no boners when I think about girls), and since the relapse, I have never been able to get a full 100% erection, which is what I was getting all of the time in those first ~170 days (I'm probably getting around 60%-80% now, if that). If I fantasize about a girl I might get a slight tingling sensation and a 10%-30% erection which I wouldn't even call an erection.

    To add in a bit of extra information, I jelqued around 15-20 times around the time of my first relapse but stopped as soon as my sex drive dropped off.

    My question is - is this normal? Have I just returned to a normal sex drive now and was that crazy high libido temporary and never going to last? Is it possible I did some damage with the jelquing despite only doing it a few times? (I know this isn't a penis enhancement forum but I'm guessing some of you guys may have heard of it). Please could someone offer me some kind of advice? I'm pretty scared right now that I'm never truly going to be horny again.
     

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