Advice Please!

Strong blocking system in my PC + my phone is completely useless(no browser).
I no longer trust myself, so I just went for hardcore mode. I know a way to cheat though(not through PC/mobile) but there's always someone in the house and just that is enough to be safe for me.
Even though I regreat it sometimes, I believe it's best decision I made regarding PC/mobile.
If we're talking stricly about craving then time. This is the only thing that makes cravings go away.

 

Altho i always advocate having a strong will but there are some ways which helped me in my 95 day streak , i wore a jeans with a belt all day long , even while going to bed , so you see i kinda developed red flags for myself , undoing my belt witu the wrong intentions was the first red flag to ask myself , " what are you doing , this wont end well , youll end up breaking your vow " , undoing the jeans was the second red flag , and taking the member out of confinement was the third red flag , these helped me quite a lot ..

 

I tried for years and years (six years), and quite honestly nothing worked. I don't say this to discourage anyone, but for me that is the bitter reality. I guess I was exposed so early in my life, that I never even had a chance to develope a normal coping system. Porn was - in a twisted and fucked up sense - my entire life and I couldn't function without it.

I simply can't trust on my willpower in the moments, where I would need it the most. I know all the reasons why I shouldn't watch porn and what will happen if I do it anyways, I always knew what I wanted, I made bulletproof plans and emergency protocols, but in the end I always just ignored all of it willingly, actively, and conciously. When it counted, my reaction always was "Ah, fuck it. Just one more time...". As you can see, that went on for over six years. After a more or less voluntary relapse, I always hated myself to the core and felt completely useless and worthless, which of course resulted in even more urges. It's a very dark spiral, which I am apparantly unable to break with my will alone.

Therefore, I decided to take drastic measures and spent weeks researching ways to block porn from all my devices without loopholes. I tried tons of stuff and finally found a combination of things, which works very well for me at the moment. I have not found any loophole for all the things I currently use. Sometimes, these blockers can be a total pain in the ass I must admit, but that's the whole point, right? I want to keep using these blockers for at least a couple of weeks and then decide how I will continue to go on. If I will develope enough strength to manage everything with my willpower, I might get rid of the blockers. But if I never gain the ability to trust myself, I am willing to use blockers for as long as necessary. It sucks, but that's how it is for me. I have great respect for everbody, who can do it without blockers, but I simply can't do it. I tried long enough. Therefore, I like to encourage others to think about blockers. Yea, it kinda is a crutch, but if your broken, you sometimes need crutches, right?

Good luck.

 

Bro , just think is that I am doing now will make my future bright ? ......
And it's totally nope cause it slowly slowly make your brain dumb and body as well you are unique and so precious soul don't do these bad activities love u hope you can overcome this sh**t but i believe you will i will know so many obstacle will come and the path is not eady at all but believe me the feeling is so much better than past black days ............❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️