After 10 years of failure

There was a time when I thought abstaining from PMO is impossible. I have failed so many times. This time I have not fapped for more than 30 days and it's awesome. Previously I was trying to leave PMO all together which is very difficult for me. Then I started reading books like your brain on porn and studying everything which I can find useful in fighting against addiction. So my plan was to not trying hard but instead feeling what I am doing and thinking deeply what it can result.
So this is my plan:
1. Trying not to see porn, I know this is impossible for me. So I gave myself little bit relaxation. That is not to M or O no matter what.
2. The reason for stopping MO is if I did masturbate it will lead to orgasm. Then it will create stronger neuron connections. As the reward is really high (dopamine).
3. So by stopping MO I am creating less sensitivity to porn and the neural pathways in brain which associate that initiating with porn will give high reward of orgasm (short term dopamine boost). So weakening this connection by not MO. What I found is together PMO is really strong. So try to cut one of them at least.
4. After completing 30 days of NoFap (MO). Note I haven't done MO for 32 days.
Now my target is too completely get rid of PMO that is get rid of seeing porn too.
Yes there was withdrawal symptoms too such as:
1. Heavy breathing
2. Sometimes I get too sweaty when I was thinking about some sexual thought and brain is fighting not to MO or see P
If someone is not addicted to it extremely I will say try abstaining from PMO all together and train your brain. If you can't do this, try leaving MO and reduce P as much as you can. Then after you train your brain leave PMO completely. In this phase I am trying to get rid of PMO.
There was a time when I thought it's impossible to leave PMO and every guy is addicted to it. But now if I can leave PMO you can also do this. PMO is trap if you keep watching it you will dig hole deeper for you. By finding more extreme porn and things like kiss won't excite you.
This is like drug I am telling this because I have wasted lots of time on it. After failing so many times, it felt like it's a game for me. Imagine you are playing the hardest game of your life and you have many chances to try again. Clear this most difficult level of game. Then you will unlock some reward. All the best to those who are struggling, you can do this.

 

Simple don't touch it. Reducing the consumption of P as much as I can. Relapsed a day ago. Now this time completely abstaining PMO