Hello to my dear friends and fellow travelers. Today, after 56 days without masturbation, I relapsed again. I'm a little upset, but when I look back, 56 days is a great achievement that I've reached after eight years. I'm happy about this. I became familiar with NoFap about three months ago, which was a great blessing from God for me because without the NoFap website, freedom from addiction would not have been possible. The information I obtained from this site and the experiences of its users were a great help in quitting masturbation. In the first attempt, I was able to go 35 days without masturbation, and in the second attempt, I reached 56 days. One regret I have is that I wish I had become familiar with NoFap years ago. But let's move on...
Regarding the reason for my relapse, if I want to tell you, it was the same old path that I have named the "Devil's Triangle": Instagram, porn, masturbation...
On Instagram, I saw a girl who was advertising porn. I became curious and searched for it on Google, and I found myself back in the swamp of porn, and then I relapsed. Let's move on. My path is correct. Like last time, Instagram is the key that opens the door to mistakes for me, and Instagram should not be in my life. Masturbation needs two wings to fly: Instagram and porn. If we cut off these two wings, it will no longer be able to fly.
Regarding the achievements I had in the first 35 days and the second 56 days, I want to tell you: First of all, I am a tall person, 190 cm tall and 90 kg in weight, but due to my addiction to masturbation, I lacked self-confidence and self-esteem. During this time, my self-confidence has increased significantly. Previously, I couldn't look anyone in the eye, but now when I talk to someone, I look directly into their eyes, and I don't make any effort to do this; it happens completely naturally and unconsciously. And believe me, without exception, everyone looks away from me. I think they get anxious, and this gives me a sense of authority. It's as if my voice has become deeper and louder. In social situations, I have no anxiety about speaking loudly or joking with people, and I have no fear or dread of anyone. I feel like this is because of the increase in testosterone in my body. I feel very comfortable with girls, which was not the case before. I'm not saying it's all because of not masturbating, because during these three months of trying to quit masturbation, I also started working on myself.
I started learning communication skills, paying attention to my diet and exercise, and added B-complex, vitamin D, omega-3, and vitamin C to my diet.
Moving past these things, I want to say that I have deleted the no-masturbation countdown from my phone because I don't need it anymore. I'm not chasing a record; I'm looking for a life without masturbation and porn, so there's no need for me to count the days. I'm only keeping a blocker app on my phone to prevent me from making mistakes, as it has been a great help on this path for me...
Friends, I don't know if I will come back here in the future and write things for you or not, but I want to tell you one thing: if you have the ability and willpower, delete Instagram or minimize your use of all virtual apps. In this day and age when everyone lowers their heads and buries them in their phones, you raise your head and use this opportunity for your progress. Quit the virtual world, porn, and masturbation so that you can become aware of your abilities. Quit so that you can reach the real pleasures of life. Quit so that you can attain the power that God has placed in you as a man...
I hope that God protects you and your families...
If there are any mistakes in my sentence structure, I apologize because I am not a native English speaker...
Regarding the reason for my relapse, if I want to tell you, it was the same old path that I have named the "Devil's Triangle": Instagram, porn, masturbation...
On Instagram, I saw a girl who was advertising porn. I became curious and searched for it on Google, and I found myself back in the swamp of porn, and then I relapsed. Let's move on. My path is correct. Like last time, Instagram is the key that opens the door to mistakes for me, and Instagram should not be in my life. Masturbation needs two wings to fly: Instagram and porn. If we cut off these two wings, it will no longer be able to fly.
Regarding the achievements I had in the first 35 days and the second 56 days, I want to tell you: First of all, I am a tall person, 190 cm tall and 90 kg in weight, but due to my addiction to masturbation, I lacked self-confidence and self-esteem. During this time, my self-confidence has increased significantly. Previously, I couldn't look anyone in the eye, but now when I talk to someone, I look directly into their eyes, and I don't make any effort to do this; it happens completely naturally and unconsciously. And believe me, without exception, everyone looks away from me. I think they get anxious, and this gives me a sense of authority. It's as if my voice has become deeper and louder. In social situations, I have no anxiety about speaking loudly or joking with people, and I have no fear or dread of anyone. I feel like this is because of the increase in testosterone in my body. I feel very comfortable with girls, which was not the case before. I'm not saying it's all because of not masturbating, because during these three months of trying to quit masturbation, I also started working on myself.
I started learning communication skills, paying attention to my diet and exercise, and added B-complex, vitamin D, omega-3, and vitamin C to my diet.
Moving past these things, I want to say that I have deleted the no-masturbation countdown from my phone because I don't need it anymore. I'm not chasing a record; I'm looking for a life without masturbation and porn, so there's no need for me to count the days. I'm only keeping a blocker app on my phone to prevent me from making mistakes, as it has been a great help on this path for me...
Friends, I don't know if I will come back here in the future and write things for you or not, but I want to tell you one thing: if you have the ability and willpower, delete Instagram or minimize your use of all virtual apps. In this day and age when everyone lowers their heads and buries them in their phones, you raise your head and use this opportunity for your progress. Quit the virtual world, porn, and masturbation so that you can become aware of your abilities. Quit so that you can reach the real pleasures of life. Quit so that you can attain the power that God has placed in you as a man...
I hope that God protects you and your families...
If there are any mistakes in my sentence structure, I apologize because I am not a native English speaker...