Hello all, I wish I could be posting here because of the fact that I reached 90 days. Alas, that is not the case. I have been attempting Nofap since the end of my senior year. I am now in my 3rd year of University, and classes have been picking up with multiple exams and assignments due later this week. I am starting to get a little bit sick, because I work out in the mornings in addition to studying hard and working on learning the guitar at night. Yesterday I was feeling overwhelmed with all the work I had to hand in later this week. I ended up looking for triggers throughout the entire day (bypassing K9 web protection which is stupid, I know). At the end of the day (around midnight) all that pent up sexual frustration that I had been building up throughout the day got the best of me and I MO'd. Immediately I felt like the worst human being on the planet and I felt that I had just betrayed my deeply ingrained beliefs that fapping is wrong. Feeling horrible about myself, I ended up PMOing twice back to back. I have never had a more difficult time falling asleep, as I knew that I had just shattered an important part of my self identity. I felt so much cognitive dissonance at the fact that my behaviour had violated one of my most deeply ingrained attitudes. What will I do to move on? I now realize that Nofap has become a very important part of me. It is as central to my identity as the fact that I am a student, an athlete, a brother, a son, and a human being. I do my very best to never experience that level of sadness again and will continue to strive to become a better person. I had been faltering in the last couple of weeks in terms of looking at girls and fantasizing, so I will stop that completely. I will give my best friend full control of my K9 web protection in order for me to not be able to bypass it at all. I will also make sure that I continue doing what I had been doing in the past 72 days that had allowed me to make such progress. My goal is to reach 100 days by December 30th. I can do it this time.