After a big period of nofap, I realized about me that I'm asexual

[blunt.ever]

In all my adolescence and childhood I was obsessed about feet. Since I was child I had fantasies with foot fetishes, domination and humiliation. Always I wanted girls to humiliating me with their feet, to make me their slave and other hundred, thousands of scenes in my brain. I never talked with people, girls, neither with my friends about this because I was very embarassed of these things. I didn't recognize to anybody. I was very shy for this, and this also made worse the situation in my head.
In highscool I had my first relationship with a girl, we stayed together for one month, we had no sex, after we broke up, from personal reasons of her.
I had another girlfriend one year later, we stayed togheter for 8 months but we had no sex. Always I wanted to do sex just to not being virgin anymore (also, I kept secret of everybody cuz I was virgin, even of her) but I didn't feel that atraction to fuck her. Just I wished, but it wasn't a strong desire, all i wanted was just to be like the other boys. We broke up after 8 months, we had no sex, (just in one night I licked her pussy of 2 times, but I didn't feel any pleasure). When I was on the point to pick up a girl , I did this just because made me to feel proud of me, cuz I can do it, I can be like the other popular guys, not because I felt.

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Also, I quited at pornography with feet of much time, I thought this will make me to feel horny of pussies, but no. After I got rid, it was hard for me, but after a big period I reached in the point of not being excited neither of feet. So yeah, now I know about me I am asexual. Finally I accepted my orientation. I don't like the pussy, I don't like to fuck. I was at a prostitute once time, I paid her to suck my dick but I didn't get hard at all and I left disapointed.

Always I thought my problem is other things, but no. After I tried all the solutions, I found out about me I don't have any medical problem, is just about my orientation. I am asexual. Just this.

 

[drac16]

Even though I cannot prove this, I believe that human sexuality is on a spectrum. What turns you on now may not be what turns you on in, say 10 years. I was once turned on by lesbian porn, but now it doesn't turn me on at all. Moreover, when someone views pornography on a regular basis, they tend to need different kinds of pornography to latch onto because the old stuff simply doesn't get them aroused anymore.

Simply put, even if you are asexual now, that doesn't guarantee that you'll be the same way in 10 years. Our sexual appetites often evolve. You're not alone!

 

[DryRiser]

Your self-diagnosis is interesting to me. You think you're asexual but this is usually defined as a lack of sexual attraction, not lack of sexual arousal. Someone who is asexual could be aroused but still feel no actual attraction i.e. no desire to be with someone, you know... attractive.

But your post is mostly describing a lack of arousal, so the question is are you attracted to women, physically to their bodies, faces, neck, breasts etc and want to be physically intimate with them? If you are, then I would prescribe going harder on the nofap.

In all my adolescence and childhood I was obsessed about feet. Since I was child I had fantasies with foot fetishes, domination and humiliation. Always I wanted girls to humiliating me with their feet, to make me their slave and other hundred, thousands of scenes in my brain. I never talked with people, girls, neither with my friends about this because I was very embarassed of these things. I didn't recognize to anybody. I was very shy for this, and this also made worse the situation in my head.
In highscool I had my first relationship with a girl, we stayed together for one month, we had no sex, after we broke up, from personal reasons of her.
I had another girlfriend one year later, we stayed togheter for 8 months but we had no sex. Always I wanted to do sex just to not being virgin anymore (also, I kept secret of everybody cuz I was virgin, even of her) but I didn't feel that atraction to fuck her. Just I wished, but it wasn't a strong desire, all i wanted was just to be like the other boys. We broke up after 8 months, we had no sex, (just in one night I licked her pussy of 2 times, but I didn't feel any pleasure). When I was on the point to pick up a girl , I did this just because made me to feel proud of me, cuz I can do it, I can be like the other popular guys, not because I felt.
Also, I quited at pornography with feet of much time, I thought this will make me to feel horny of pussies, but no. After I got rid, it was hard for me, but after a big period I reached in the point of not being excited neither of feet. So yeah, now I know about me I am asexual. Finally I accepted my orientation. I don't like the pussy, I don't like to fuck. I was at a prostitute once time, I paid her to suck my dick but I didn't get hard at all and I left disapointed. Always I thought my problem is other things, but no. After I tried all the solutions, I found out about me I don't have any medical problem, is just about my orientation. I am asexual. Just this.