After one year of no fab life is no longer the same

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Omda72, Aug 1, 2020.

  1. Omda72

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    Well, this is my first article ,Ihave never made a thread here before and this is my first one,.
    I have passed one year finally with no PMO literally and it was tough especially first month but things get more easy with time and I mean it, what went wrong or unexpected is that my mind had changed a lot, I've lost interest in things I used to enjoy, watching soccer games, playing with Playstation ,even mingling with family,friend and relatives, I don't enjoy all these social activity , onthe other hand I found my self indulge in reading , I'm no longer anxious about anything ,my wife start to notice these changes , absolutely nothing excite like before I quit, the good part I became more alerted to any triggers and wiped and blocked all porn sites and adv. I belief I still suffer flatline , I've read that in one the posts around here " the longer you fab in your life the longer is the recovery and reboot phase , I can't imagine I can handle it it's really sucks .
    I thought my memory would come back sharp and consistent but no change even though all the fog had disappeared but still it take me great deal of concentration to remember simple things just as names , I've worked hard on my self to stay on track away from PMO and this blog helped alot ,many thanks to all of you guys and your dedication and persistence to help others.
     
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  2. Thanks mate, good encouragement. I'm just into week 2 after relapsing from an over 90 day reboot 5 years ago and it's tough, tough going at the moment. Not urges, just anxious, depressed, lethargic and feel like I have mild flu. I'm sure it'll pass but damn it's pain at the moment!
     
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    Mild flu is one of things you would feel after relapse by one day , I think it's related to immunity hence I'm easily susceptible to flu after exerting some activity I can say it's related , the good thing is that lethargy gonna fade with time (take it from my own experience) , you are strong to keep the momentum for 90 days and don't worry just reset the timer and start the journey ,always remind your self with all the positive things you've just experienced and try to feel the difference, it's worth it , long time ago when I was searching for what the heck is this habit and what benefits I can get , some website gave me false infos about it's benefit interm of stress relief, mood improvement...etc ; all the fake and garbage things that doesn't make sense, then I realized that I'm imprisoned shackled mentally and physically from true world , my soul is detached from all the joy of life and occupied with illusions ...I hope you can shape your life with way you like ...stay safe , stay away from villain.
     
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  4. Thanks, struggling again this morning and just want to fall asleep and never wake up. You fear it'll never get better but I'm sure it will, just so damn hard at the moment.
     
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    Waked up morning , feel calm ,relaxed ,and sharpmind,still my memory not fixed yet ,try yo read some books and concentrate.
    The one I note the day before I had glimpse of OCD , Iknew I had this episode during my reboot but it did'nt fade away, I've returned back to my car to make sure It's well locked and the wheels are aligned , even though I knew it's ok, but my mind push me hard to check back , also some negative thoughts keep coming to my mind, as if I need to jump from the window and fly .
    I don't know when I'm going to get rid of all these things ..
     

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