I relapsed twice in the last two days. Honestly, I dont feel that bad, I feel as if I am ready for change. Now. I guess that's how we all feel on day one, right? Man, I just can't think of the kind of damage I've done. Do you become a subhuman when you masturbate 22 times in 9 months? That's how it feels, but I'm going to change. There must be a reason why we all are experiencing this change, and why we all WANT to change, even if not all of us are as committed as the best of us..