Hello, I'm 28 and I guess that the first time I discovered masturbation was around 12. Since then, I continued masturbating myself quite regularly (arriving do it daily in my teenage time). Maybe pushed by my school mates, maybe because of the age. I started watching erotic things very early (around 13) on TV and leaflets. Then, when the internet arrived as a regular media, I started looking for porno pictures instead. It went on, growing slowly in my mind. I have never been a huge user of pornography - but in these last years, it developed worst. As the "Getting started" says, I wasn't happy with the "regular" pornography sex that the web offers. It is there where I arrived also to gay porno. It completely started destroying my values and I started feeling always worse about myself, my conscience and definitely God (I'm a Christian BTW). It started working on my mind, this illusion of having sexual relations with anyone alive. I guess you know how it feels when reaching the bottom. Until this last episode, when (maybe because of loneliness/boredom) I started doing live gay chat to see how it is and I masturbated myself in front of the camera (In front of a real person). That definitely broke me. Now, to whoever is a Christian, you know how bad it hurts you! I just want to throw up thinking of these things - it is something that disgusts me. I definitely need help to come out from this vortex and I believe that God heard my plead today - NoFap will be an oasis in this desert. May God bless you!