After years of trying... 90 days at last! Here's what I've learned

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by HacKadi, Sep 6, 2020.

  1. HacKadi

    HacKadi Fapstronaut

    Hi everyone! I´ve finally did it after many, many, maaaaaany tries. I think I finally understand what´s the only way to do it (for me), and I want to share it with you all.

    I´m 26 years old and I´ve doing PMO since 12 or 13. And I mean HARD PMO, I mean hours and hours per day. One time I tried to calculate how much time did I waste watching porn in all those years (adding all the estimate hours was shocking) and the result was... almost a year of my life. A HOLE REAL YEAR.

    Anyway, the lack of social life and anxiety caused by PMO it´s known by everyone, so it´s no surprise that I didn´t realise that I have a problem until 20 or 21, when I finally started some small dating life. Long story short... I couldn´t get hard. And even if I took a boner pill I couldn´t orgasm. Sex just wasn´t that exciting, there was no comparison with porn. Then I learned of NoFap and the addiction that is PMO, it´s funny that I never even consider that I had and addiction until that moment. Since then I tried many times to leave it and many different strategies: abstaining from PMO for a week to achieve a minimum success on sex; abstaining from porn but masturbating once a week (I´ve lasted 4 months with that one but then relapsed on vacations); trying to switch to a more "normal and light" porn :emoji_laughing:, etc. It took me years of trying and leaving it and slowly I started to feel really guilty and depressed every time I PMO, I couldn´t stop associating PMO with almost all the bad things in my life... and I was right:
    • Unhealthy body
    • Lack of energy
    • Lack of ambitions and objectives
    • Lack of time (so much time wasted)
    • Almost no sex life
    • Never had a girlfriend or been with the same girl more than 2 o 3 times
    • Passive, unwilling to step out of my comfort zone
    • Nice Guy syndrome
    Basically all the things that I didn´t want in my file. So it took me years but I finally did a full 90 days reboot and here´s how I did it:

    1. No Half Decisions. I realised that one of the main factors that made me relapse was that even if I tried to abstain from porn and masturbation I allowed myself to fantasy. For me, any erotic tough that I allowed to "live" sooner or later will lead me to a relapse. And I allowed it to "live" in two ways: the normal urges that pop up time to time and when I did my Jelqing exercises (now I do it without a single erotic though since I don´t have a problem getting an erection with simple touch). So I decided that I wouldn´t let ANY EROTIC TOUGHT of any kind prosper: I "kill" it at the moment by thinking the most grotesque and ugly things that I can imagine without a single exception. There is no other way for me.
    2. Don´t make it more difficult than it has to be. I´ve studied many books on the field of habits (highly recommend "The Compound Effect" and "Atomic Habits") Every good or bad habit can be segmented in 4 elements, and it´s easy to hack every part of it to help you gain or lose an habit (even addictions). If you can´t gain or lose an habit, you are not the problem, the problem it´s the system that you are using. You have to make it difficult to keep the bad habit by: A) Reducing exposure and signals from your enviroment (don´t whatch movies, shows, anime, etc., that have erotic content in it. Even videogames. Drop social networks, wich is another addiction and a waste of time). B) Making it unpleasant (for example "killing" any though with unpleasant images AND keep awareness about the toxic consecuencess of PMO). C) Making it difficult to happen (keeping a busy life, adquiering good habits litle by litle, exercising, having routines, gettind out of the house, etc. Getting out fast of bed and only going to tired and without cellphone). D) Rewarding yourself (I used a NoFap tracking app that encouraged me to keep the strike and planned rewards for every 15 days like clothes, new blue cut glasses, gym equipment, a tattoo at day 90 with is the most significant for me).
    So in synthesis:
    • Change your enviroment and "Kill" any erotic though, no matter the temptation
    • Use a NoFap tracking app (I use Men Don´t Fap)
    • PLAN REWARDS FOR YOURSELF. Also I had a tattoo with a deep meaning for my 90 days mark.
    • Gain new good habits LITTLE BY LITTLE, otherwise it´s likely that they won´t stuck up since they are not part of your identity YET.
    • Visualize the life that you want and work hard to get it. Picture the kind of man that would had such a life and work to become that man, so you can do more of what you like and less of what you don´t like.
    • Recognize other addictions in your life and drop them as well. Change your inner words: it´s not "I´m trying to stop smoking", it´s "I don´t smoke". It´s a decision that you have made so make it part of your identity.
    • And for the love of god sleep 8 hours, don´t make it hard for your body and mind
    • Books: The Compound Effect, Atomic Habits, Why We Sleep?, Digital Minimalism, Deep Work, Juliet School of Possibilities, No More Mr. Nice Guy!
    Sorry for the long post. My life changed COMPLETELY in both personal and professional matters. I now have more energy, more time, I´m more focussed, more confident, more healthy, more atractive and I know what I want and I work towards that. So I hope that all of you leave this toxic addiction and atart living your lives at it´s fullest!

    PD: I had 4 or 5 wet dreams during the 90 days, so don´t worry about potential problems of semen retention. Also I didn´t have sex since I don´t feel comfortable meeting a new girl and having sex right now (COVID-19). I´ll keep this way for a couple of months more, but I know that when I finally have sex it would be a hole new experience:emoji_laughing::emoji_laughing::emoji_laughing:.
    Last edited: Sep 6, 2020
  2. cuervojones85

    cuervojones85 New Fapstronaut

    Those are some greats toughts and excellent tools. Thank you for sharing.
    I'm about to grab "The Power of Habit" by Charles Duhigg, are you familiar with this book?
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  3. Dogwood

    Dogwood Fapstronaut

    Congrats. It's "whole" not "hole," although "hole" is a very funny pun in this instance. :)
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  4. elvagoazul

    elvagoazul Fapstronaut

    That's truly discipline. I acknowledge I have problems with having fantasizes, but I will work in order to overcome those.
    Great post, very motivational!
  5. justinjohn

    justinjohn Fapstronaut

    I love the way you explains it thanks man.
  6. I have read it. It is good.
  7. luna luna

    luna luna Fapstronaut

    i think i have problem with making it difficult, especially during lock down.. maybe gotta consider using some filters or blocking apps
    thanks for your advises and for sharing.. that was inspiring
    good luck
  8. Osl0

    Osl0 Fapstronaut

    I'm glad you are feeling that awesome. Greetings from Colombia and keep moving forward, Bro!.
  9. muhammads._

    muhammads._ New Fapstronaut

    i have a question so for some im gonn be open here
    For some people on semen retention their soze of their penis increases because of testosterone
    Im doing semen retention to increase my overall happiness and clearer mind and for the gym and more confidence ,i know semen retention is the act of not ejaculating and holding onto your semen,i heard masturbating is something called like edging and dont do that,but im also testing this experiment for size increase as well cause my friend did sr and noticed a size increase and then did jelqing,what i want to know is that if jelqing counts as a relapse or counts as masturbating cause i know masturbating makes u feel sad on sr and brings down mood,i wanna know if jelqing/kegels are a relapse or counts as masturbating and if i can do it on sr
  10. Till the last breath

    Till the last breath Fapstronaut

    Great post mate,I really appreciate you for taking time to write such long posts. You did a great service for this community. There will be many who will motivated by you.

    Also, side question, I had wet dreams when I was like 14 or 15 a few times, but after that the PMO increased to a level where I have never had a wet dream in years now. I used to get so irritated because it feels disgusting getting up and noticing it all wet down there.
    The question is whether there is a way to not have wet dreams and not have PMO at the same time during these streaks.

    If any one has any good advice on this, please reply, I'm on 4th day of my streak and I know that wet dreams are inevitable in a few days from now. I just don't want to have a wet dream.
  11. OmarSoliman

    OmarSoliman New Fapstronaut

    Good job my friend! I started NoFap 10 days ago, and I feel good.
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  12. Just view wet dreams as a good thing. This is a challenge of the mind so you will have to use your mind to beat this. Wet dreams are a good sign that you are healing.
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  13. Aye the scotsman

    Aye the scotsman Fapstronaut

    Man what a read thanks for sharing this, this kind of mind wandering fantasizing is the last hurdle ive got to beat and posts like this are totally inspiring
    Thank you
  14. Great job mate! I wonder if college/grad students started doing presentations on NoFap with success stories like these, if it would work it’s way into sex ed. Imagine if all middle schoolers had nofap success as something to aspire to.

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