Hello everyone, This is not the first time that I have tried to go NoFap. I did a period of almost 2 years of NoFap from August 2016 to March 2018. I would, of course, have the occasional wet dream here and there. But even over those, I was beginning to get some control i.e. gain consciousness and reorient my thoughts to avoid ejaculation. Then in March of 2018, I was going on a long meditation retreat and was worried about having a wet dream during my retreat and thus decided to masturbate and release so that I needn't have to worry about having a wet dream during the 5-day retreat. That was a really bad idea because since then I have not been able to go longer than a month without getting an uncontrollable urge to watch porn and masturbate. I am really perplexed as to how helpless I have become when the urge gets really strong. I was somehow able to control it during the long period that I abstained but now somehow my willpower doesn't seem to be able to last more than a month at most. And thus after succumbing today to watching porn and masturbating, I decided that I need to get some external help if I want to make NoFap a lifelong habit. And that is how I came across this website. Looking forward to tips and suggestions from others on how they are dealing with their struggles through conquering this urge desire. There is an old Buddhist parable that quotes Buddha as saying, "If there was a second thing as pleasurable as sex then Nirvana would be impossible". And so I understand that it is a difficult journey but all my idols have achieved the state of Brahmacharya or celibacy and that is what I aspire to and look forward to learning from other members within this community. Cheers!