Alcohol

I think that I should write it. Through HOCD, which later (many years) became porn induced, I fell into stress and a social phobia. I started drinking alcohol before stressful situations and it helped. Of course my organism had to feel it later because sometimes I drank a lot at once. Alcohol only helps for a while, masks problems but never removes, although I must admit that when I was drinking HOCD was gone. But after years, I started to escalate to strange porn things and my situation became worse. Now if for the example i had a strong gay obsession on the previous day , then when the next day I drink it my fears are stronger , then they become real, but they are not pleasant and destroy my psyche. Alcohol and addiction to pornography and OCD are not a solution. Only work on yourself and help good specialists. Best wishes and good luck to everyone!

 

I know. Recently I had a few bad days and when I must had to go to the city to get a document, but before I drank quite a lot of vodka at home (to eliminate stress, but not to competently get drunk of course) and the symptoms instead of disappearing, intensified a lot and I was afraid that they were true. After returning home, I drank the whole bottle and I was devastated mentally. When I woke up (but I still felt alcohol), I watched the taboo pornography (which until recently was a deterrent to me and I did not want to think about it before because I was not interested in it) and I was aroused and ejaculated. But after a while I felt bad about it and when I woke up in the morning it was worse than ever before. From now on I will never drink when I'm in a bad mood because then it can only get worse. The only positive aspect is that maybe this is something that will make me stop having this addiction because when I watched the pornography which i accept, I did not think about myself as being addicted on more than 10 years.That is the truth, but if I knew it at the beginning my life would be different. But now I have to save myself and start working on my weaknesses and start strengthening.

 

I'm not an alcoholic, I just used alcohol as a shield against OCD. My problem is OCD and alcohol is just an addition for it. Porn Addiction weakened me mentally and added false doubts. But drinking or further masturbation is the worst solution because it is not a solution for me and similar cases.

ps. I live in Central Europe. One of the colleagues asked about it above.