Aliera's Journal

Discussion in 'Significant Other Journals' started by CastleBlack, Apr 16, 2018.

  1. CastleBlack

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    Last night was rough. It was his birthday yesterday. We were on our way home from dinner at which he had a few beers. Often times when he drinks it makes him rather combative and argumentative. I don't remember how it came up exactly but he started talking about sex and brought up wanting oral sex. I've been avoiding this 1) since finding out about his last relapse (though I couldn't exactly say why) and 2) because I've been sick and my throat hurts. What really bothered me is the "joke" he made next. He said it has been a long time since he has cum anywhere other than in my vagina (can I say p***y on here?). At first I wasn't sure what he was implying but then I realized he was talking about cumming on my face. This is a fetish of his that I have always known and occasionally indulged in but I REALLY don't like it and he knows I don't like it. I was hurt that he brought it up and so I decided to ask him what it is that he likes about it. He got angry and said, "You can't ask a guy why he likes what he likes," though I don't see why not and he was unable to answer that question either. He asked why I like sex and I said because it feels good, provides intimacy and builds bonds. I told him I don't feel like cumming on someone's face does any of those things. No answer. So, upset about the fact that he brought it up in the first place and then further hurt by his response to my inquiry I went to the bedroom and started crying. He followed me and asked, "What's wrong?" but with a tone of obligation, not genuine concern. I told him it bothered me that he continues to bring that up over the years. No, not frequently, but enough. Apparently since I have given in in the past he thought that meant I like it? I told him I feel obligated to do it occasionally because I know it's something he likes even though I abhor it. He just kept yelling and gave a very sarcastic apology. It was awful. I feel like he only brought it up because it was his birthday and he felt entitled to something "extra". Needless to say, we spent the rest of the night apart even though it was his bday AND one of the rare nights our daughter actually went to bed early. Ugh.
     
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    I’m so sorry to hear this girl :( this breaks my heart and this story is way to familiar. If you ever need anyone to talk to, message me. Such a shitty situation. Porn really makes our boyfriends into a**holes sometimes <3
     
  3. 21yearsin

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    No man is entitled to a "facial" ever!!
     
  4. CastleBlack

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    Feeling super depressed this week. We still haven't talked or gotten back to normal since our fight Sunday night. When he gets caught he is all super lovey and helpful for about a week and then he goes back to his reclusive, sulky self. He says he just wants to make me happy, asks me what I want in order to achieve that. I tell him I want his affection and I want him to just ACT like he wants me. Again he'll do well for about a week and then it goes back to nearly nothing. If he really wants me and wants this relationship to last then I need more consistency.
     
  5. BetrayedMermaid

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    I’m so mad at your man!!! I really don’t know anybody that enjoys having come all over their face. That is a lie that pornography tells!! I’m serious I have tons of friends and we’ve talked about this and nobody I mean nobody likes cum in their face. It’s so disrespectful and maybe it makes a man feel like they are this alpha male spraying their woman??? Anyway I just wanted to tell you that I’m sorry you’re being treated so poorly.
     
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  6. 21yearsin

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    The porn girls don't like it either its so gross
     
  7. CastleBlack

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    Thanks, I agree. I think it's disrespectful and degrading. I've told him this on many occasions but it's his fetish so apparently I'm just supposed to oblige. He says it's his "love juice" o_O
     
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    ugh, so stupid... in my opinion if your partner doesn't like it, move on, don't try to get her to like it, especially if you are a PA because you know he's thinking about all the girls that it shows that they love that.... they don't ... but porn stars I guess are convincing... the stuff I've seen though, especially with blow jobs.... you can see it in their face, they are NOT enjoying it... like they pretend to... it's all for the guys pleasure. I think my x secretly looked at porn because he always wanted (I won't be descriptive here)...don't want to trigger anyone, but anyway, I made HIM try it and yep... he didn't like it, imagine that!! LOL...
     
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  9. CastleBlack

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    Yeah they are absolutely horrible scenes. Every time I see one I grimace, and you can see them cringing even though they try to hide it. It's humiliating just watching it, let alone being a participant. I've seen so many of those scenes on his phone. They're practically burned into my brain :confused: When we fought about it last week I mentioned something about how he likes it because of porn and he shrugged it off. He says he gets my cum on his face when he goes down on me but IMO that's not the least bit the same.
     
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