This is a particularly sad occasion for me. I thought I could take actions to prevent myself from watching porn and masturbating but they all failed. Self-will was not enough. I have successfully overcome substance use disorder with drugs and alcohol and should really know better than to try and run on self-will. Recently, the relationship with my girlfriend has become very serious. Let me say now that it is not the sole motivation to become a healthier human being. It was simply the final straw and now the jumping off point. For that reason, I am glad and can feel hope for a brighter future. Thank you all for being a part of this community. I am certainly grateful that there is a place I can go where people are dealing with similar problems in an effective, safe, and welcoming way.