Almost 1 week in. Why do we choose such pain?

I was going to make a post yesterday. It was going to go something like this:

Why do we choose to cause ourselves such pain by continuing this habit? When we get addicted to this behavior, it makes the rest of life seem extremely painful. We get addicted to comfort. We get addicted to the instant gratification. Then, everything else hurts more than it should and it drives us right back to the thing that is causing us so much pain in our lives.

Today, I understand why we choose this. And here’s why:

Right now I am experiencing cravings. The cravings for the behavior did not just arise from nowhere. I started drinking, then eating junk food, then watching YouTube. In other words, I got a little too comfortable. I’m not going to relapse tonight because I’m too determined to let that happen. However, I see how it is so hard. The urges are strong. Nevertheless, I am stronger.