Almost 100 days

Hey guys I almost made it to 100 days, and then I gave in and watched porn. I'm ashamed of myself. Im pretty confident my wife isn't talking to me right now. And I feel guilty for watching something I never really felt after watching . Not sure what will happen but I have to keep trying.

 

I know that I'm going to relaps, it's getting my wife to forgive me that's the thing. I'm not bad like I used to be, I fell once and now she's acting like I just cheated on her.

 

No sex isn't the issue, I've had a problem with porn and sexting, the sexting I've been rid of for a while, but the porn I was free for 100 days and when I relaps I always feel guilty then I feel bad for hurting my wife

 

Just having a really tough day today, on the inside I'm so emotional and the outside is my front. I know I created this monster in my wife and now I have to be the one to deal with it. I honestly thought that I was in control of myself but yesterday proved otherwise.

 

I understand what you say and I do know it's a form of cheating, for me it has been an addiction, and it's been tough to cut it. I went 100 days but I know by my failure what I did wrong and I have to fix it. I appreciate the brutal honesty man. And even without my wife, I know I have to fix myself. I know now that I am never fully in control with my urges so I have to keep myself in check with security measures