I've been quite sleep deprived lately. This was because of a university assignment that I was a bit too lazy to start off with. I was going smooth with NOFAP hard mode until a week ago when in sleep deprivation state I made it to 2 sessions of watching explicit media and rubbing my wood. They weren't that long (20 mins combined) and were limited to images. I went to sleep immediately. I knew I didn't have any urge to watch it and was just watching it coz my energy was severely drained off factory work and university assignments. The disturbed sleep cycle continued to last night when I had a full session of about 45 minutes both watching the filth and rubbing my wood. Thankfully it struck me early that porn is for cucks and I am not gonna be a spectator. I went to sleep after somehow getting rid of my cell phone. I woke up to a wet dream. I felt quite depressed for having disturbed my PMO streak. I usually put a small red mark with a big green mark on a day I watch porn without masturbating. A day without any PMO is a big green cross. June was the month without any red crosses. However, the 2 sessions in this month have already got me 2 small red crosses. What got me to this state? Although I've had those urges to just search for some explicit content (deja vu), I was always able to avoid'em recalling how most of my streaks ended the same way. My routine was so disturbed since the last 10 days that I was just not feeling any good. Somehow I managed to search for some explicit stuff on Reddit while I was reading something in the NoFap subreddit. It was just recently that I removed Reddit from my BlockSite list as most of the literature from the MDF app is from Reddit. I added it back last night as part of my risk mitigation strategy. Today I decided to sacrifice that assignment for the sake of my streak. It was not worth keeping onto it and I know I can do better in terms of planning next time.