I have a gf of about 8 months. In july we spent holidays together for about 3 weeks. We talk open about marriage and engagement. All was always very good and even though sometimes we would have some issues we always managed to figure them out. Start of september I had to move to a different country because of a job. We knew it would be difficult for our relationship, but nonetheless I felt I had to go and at least look at the opportunity, so I did. We talked on the phone couple times, video chat last sunday was awesome and we both loved each other very much and we rejoiced at the idea of having a future together. Which brings me to the next point, where I feel I might have screwed up. Next day I was in town and was attracted to other girls. It felt weird for me, as I knew I had a gf, and so in my infinite wisdom I decided to write my gf about it. I thought, because we were going to get married, it would be good for her to know about me, and my weakness - i ttold her about my temptations to flirt with them and also about my libido - which was already building up from the last time we had s - and erotic dreams. First I thought I had done nothing wrong. She replied to my email, doubled down on her commitment to a future together, showed empathy and understanding (or so i thought), and told me that she already loves me how i am. I answered something to that, it was in the same spirit as the first email. Well, this was on monday. I had also had sent her a text message on telegram. I had not heard from here since then. I feel disappointed, and quite frankly, a bit offended that she has left my text message on read and didnt reply. It is obvious that she doesnt value me or is as much interested in me as I am. I can understand, that me opening up myself to her about my lust has decreased her attraction for me, and my situation here (i came here with high spirits - im pretty much at the bottom of my existence now) is a killer aswell. I wanted to ask anyone here what is your opinion? Am i being too clingy? Is she being rude? Where to go from here? How can I make the relationship so that it is as it was in the beginning - she was pursuing me 90%?