Am I doing the right thing?

ironares

ironares

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Hello everyone here, let me start by saying that I respect all of you for endeavoring in your goals to cease with self indulgence where it hinders you in your life.

My question is, am I doing the right thing, with my attempts to stop my masturbation?
I have already began trying, sometimes a week, sometimes two weeks without, and I will occasionally do what is called on here "edging", because I want to maintain my sexual virility by keeping that part of me active.

Pornography is such a deep seeded part of my life now, having discovered it from an early age and using it like a drug, getting increasingly perverse with it to keep it stimulating with variety. Lets just say I have an external hard drive that I could host a streaming website off of. So that is a demon for another day.

For now I have seen limited success in my current endeavor, only attempting it because I think my brainpower is lost in the frequent act of it, that while I may get frustrated without it, maybe I need to feel frustrated, and that is what will motivate me to be a better person, a new person,
but I am scared.

I am hopeful and simultaneously afraid of the power that I gain when I go for too long, because either way I still feel I am not in control. Perhaps I am just lost, and I don't know if I can really do it, but all of us have been there at some point, right? Does anyone know something that can help me?


hormonally yours,
ironares
 
Hey there, You are doing the right thing if you are here trying to get help. I would suggest to get rid off the hard drive for starters. Have you watch yourbrainonporn? It helped me to understand a lot. I don't have too much to say, because I have the same problem. But I will be posting daily. Stay strong
 
You know the answer to your question, but at the moment you have an addiction that is living inside your head. Want to see it? Here is your post with the addicted parts highlighted.

Hello everyone here, let me start by saying that I respect all of you for endeavoring in your goals to cease with self indulgence where it hinders you in your life.

My question is, am I doing the right thing, with my attempts to stop my masturbation?
I have already began trying, sometimes a week, sometimes two weeks without, and I will occasionally do what is called on here "edging", because I want to maintain my sexual virility by keeping that part of me active.

Pornography is such a deep seeded part of my life now, having discovered it from an early age and using it like a drug, getting increasingly perverse with it to keep it stimulating with variety. Lets just say I have an external hard drive that I could host a streaming website off of. So that is a demon for another day.

For now I have seen limited success in my current endeavor, only attempting it because I think my brainpower is lost in the frequent act of it, that while I may get frustrated without it, maybe I need to feel frustrated, and that is what will motivate me to be a better person, a new person,
but I am scared.

I am hopeful and simultaneously afraid of the power that I gain when I go for too long, because either way I still feel I am not in control. Perhaps I am just lost, and I don't know if I can really do it, but all of us have been there at some point, right? Does anyone know something that can help me?​

Now do you see the addiction and what it is doing? It is scared that you have come to noFap. It is trying to convince you not to waste your time, that you don't need noFap, that it doesn't work, that you aren't capable of it. It is using the evidence of all those hours of PMO as a reason not to stop. It is saying, "if you delete your harddrive what does that say about all those hours you spent filling it. You don't want to know the answer to that so ignore those thoughts and carry on PMO." It is desperate to survive. Believe me, because I have had that same addiction in my head for 30 years and it is a real bastard.

"Does anyone know something that can help me?" Yes. Keep coming to this site, read the posts, go to the web site suggested by jo3 and read it ALL, now.

http://yourbrainonporn.com

Now read some more posts here, find some that ring true to you. There will be plenty. Then start posting your thoughts, your feelings, more questions, make a commitment, get a counter, stop PMOing and start living again.

Well done for getting to noFap. You know you need help. I hope you agree that this is the place you will find it (if you don't agree then that is your addiction talking :) )

Good luck!
 
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