I haven't been on this forum for a really long time. Thought things were going well, but... I recently discovered that my husband has been watching YouTube videos of half naked women...wait for it...fishing!!! I confronted him today about it. His excuse is that one of the women is married. So effin' what??? I deleted all the YouTube channels from our TVs. We don't have cable and use Rokus for the TVs that we do have. So he goes way over the top and takes the TV out of his man cave. He's telling me I should leave and he's over it. In his mind he thinks because he's watching a half naked married woman with a husband fishing with her, it's OK. It's such a big trigger for me and I have been absolutely sick to my stomach for the past couple days. We have been married 41...yes 41 years. He's been addicted to porn since the beginning, but I was completely unaware for a very long time. I found magazines and videos and DVDs. I've begged and pleaded for him to stop. He's always told me he was done. I wish I had somewhere to go. I hate that I am in this position at this point in my life with no where to go and no one to count on. I'll figure something out. Thanks for listening.