Am I straight, bi or gay?

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Hey man, PMO twists everyone's minds. Start your reboot, wait a while - 30 days, 60 days, etc, than see how you feel.

 

You sound completely straight to me. When you get anxieties about orientation because of porn genres you may have seen and start questioning yourself and testing yourself, it usually points to one thing. It is a type of OCD called HOCD. In other words Homosexual Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. The cure for that is ignore the questions, stop testing yourself and give up porn and masturbation for at least 90/100 days. At that point, your true orientation will be crystal clear. Good luck.

 

Everyone deviates one way or another. I don't think that you are gay, you were looking for novelty, because the brain needs more and more stimulus as your addiction worsens.

 

You know, when my porn use escalated, my brain chemistry was so f****d up that I got erections on a lake or a tree or some other shit Just think about it, how messed up your brain must be, that it gives a signal to get erect on a random tree or clouds in the sky. That was the time I realised that I have a really serious porn issue, and my brain is a mess. We see with our brain, not with our eyes.
For example, how our brains work. Lets take clinical depression. Person who has it, has maybe everything ok in his life. Wife, kids, well paid job, nice home etc. But only thing what he is thinking, is that life sucks and how to kill himself.
Other example, transsexuals: There are a lot of stories how 5 years after they have made the sex change operation, they want to be a man again.
They dont feel that way anymore. The suicide rate amongst them is high. Its not who they are as a human, its that their brain is messed up and gives false signals.
Third example, jail: There are a lot of man on man sex there. Dominant guy f***ks weaker one just to show his dominance and make the other guy submissive and break his spirit. Its a power thing. And I think the erections that they have to perform, is due the feeling of power.
Stop practising the things you dont like, or what you dont want to be or do in your life. You are what you do. Every time you do something you get better at it, and brain makes new and stronger connections in that area.

 

As you see, its not sexual, its messed up brain.
Maybe we lose our sexuality in porn, I mean these individuals who have crossed the line. You look some genre for a period of time, and you have seen it all, it gets boring. Then you take new genre that is a bit off your taste or something you havent even thought of. The shock of that gives you a new rush and you go back for that. And so it escalates more and more. Then you have identinty crisis about who you are. Why I watch these things that I didnt and dont like, but still get erections. Well like Straus told, he gets himself erect on straight porn, and to get more exited he turns into gay porn. In that way he teaches his brain to get erect on that. And now hes confused. Do this shit long enogh and youll start waching people f****g animals or other weird shit. Then you need to identify yourself again, are you gay or zoophile. Endless circle.

 

Im not saying that, you must deal with that yourself. Im trying to give you information that may help you understand whats going on.
Believe me, Im not going to start having sex with clouds or trees but the erections where there.
Cuckold porn is something that I allso watced, but I imagined that Im the man f*****g other mans wife.
I allso have HOCD, but never watched anything related to gay porn, no ladyboys no trans etc. Its just not me. But I have wached lesbian porn and liked it a lot. Thats allso is gay porn with females, but most men watch it and like it. Theres two women, and I like women, more the merryer. Its not that simple you see.
There was a thread here, how cuckold and sissy porn are designed to make you feminine and submissive. Theres lot of subliminal messages in these. Look it up, I think you find it interesting and educational for yourself.

 

Cuckold, sissi porn, porn in general, humiliation ... has got NOTHING to do with living life as a gay man

 

Hello, for years I've been watching porn and I've watched a lot of categories and there are two that I do not understand why I watch them even though I'm not attracted to them in reality 1. Trance 2. Animation and all its categorie: loli, yaoi...

 

The thing with porn is that you tend to search for different things to get an extra kick of dopamine. I consider myself straight and have been with 4 women, but I have watched all kinds of porn... Straight porn, gay porn, transgendered person porn, bondage, zoofilia... Quit that sh*t as soon as possible. It messes with your mind.

 

Relax! To be gay would not be killing you.

 

Even if you were bi, it's not a bad thing. Atleast you have options. But the thing is, you might be a little curious and maybe sometimes you are in the mood for it, and maybe sometimes not.
Porn is visually seeing a fantasy being played out, just like a movie or a television series. You are getting an extra dopamine dose with extra stimulus. My suggestion is to stop watching any porn just to test yourself if you are gay or not. If you see a man in person and you are attracted and fantasizing about being with him, then yes, you are. So that should be the only indication.