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An all time low

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by anony mous, Oct 18, 2015.

  1. anony mous

    anony mous Fapstronaut

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    i learned about nofap about a year ago. I read all the science and knew all the facts and downsides. I was very serious about stopping. Fast forward several months and stopping PMO was just one of those " ye ill do it" goals id relapse every couple of days.

    Yesterday tho, i hit an all time low. My great aunt was sitting infront of me cause she got bored of her room ( we live alone) and before she came i was watching porn and i felt bad cause she interrupted me. So instead of stopping the porn. I just continued watching for me pleasure, and when it got too much to handle i started rubbing my parts with the pillow when that was not enough stimulation and subtle enough. I took the cover and put it on me ( WHILE SHE WAS SITTING RIGHT THERE INFRONT OF ME) claimed its cold and started jacking off... she left the room. When i finished up i went to her room and asked why she left she said you know why you can watch all what you want but im an old lady and i fear god and im too old to fool around. I laughed it off.

    Today she was like i want to tell you something but im shy. You know why i left yesterday and i just wana tell you that this messes you up down the road and you wont have any children and she said shes a nurse and knows these things.

    Now shes the biggest blabber in the family; everyone will know in due time. She criticized my relation ship with god. I deserve all that but what is truly killing me is that i had the nerve to fap RIGHT INFRONT OF HER. like not only watch the porn but jack off to it. i was so numb that I couldnt care less.

    Thing is i dont take stopping PMO seriously. I NEED TO STOP. but i also need to constantly be reminded how important it is. Please tell me your comments and help me
     
  2. APY

    APY Fapstronaut

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    I wrote this in another thread, here is my advice:

    Step 1) Start a NoFap journal. Write in it daily.
    Step 2) Find an accountability partner or group. Someone or a group of people you can talk to and help each other get through it.
    Step 3) Come here daily. Read the success stories and talk with people on the forums.
    Step 4) Find other areas in your life where you can add good habits (meditations, exercise, reading, etc).

    When you read about the benefits of quitting daily, and actively engage with other people regarding improving your life, you will find that you have more motivation.
     
  3. Icyweb

    Icyweb Fapstronaut

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  4. recoome

    recoome Fapstronaut

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    even i have done public jack off before a relative. the relative was looking the other way but i know she knew what i was doing.

    regarding the urge to fap...in a way it's a good thing. think of it as, would u be glad if u had no sexual urges n no urges to have fun? dont think bad of the urges. let them come and go. if the urge to fap comes, i think of it for 2 mins n then let it go.

    it's like surfing a wave. the wave/thought/urge will enlarge n then let it pass.
     

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