An honest description of a relapse

Argh - let me tell you, this had been my first attempt with nofap. I was 11 days in, thinking oh yeah I'm good to go I'm doing great etc.

Let me just say it started with Tinder. I can't use Tinder because it leads to porn. It is very rare and exceptional to pull in a sexual partner from Tinder, what is more likely is that you will exhaust your opportunities very quickly and especially if your addiction has made you impulsive, dispassionate, or impatient.

That moves quickly enough into the escort webpages. I think even they're onto us. I don't know, it's got nothing to do with my number since I change it all the time but I completely feel like 95% of the escorts I text don't answer either. For me, I would not have called that a complete relapse. However, this was the problem...

The escort site I was browsing has porn gifs! I was screwed (no pun) the second I saw this gif image of (NAME NAME) getting (VERB VERB) and that was it. That happened last night. So I slept until about 4am, and that was this morning, I was looking at all the unanswered texts on my phone ... and my disappointing Tinder, and I just did it.. I looked up this girl (can't say her name but you all know her) and was done within two minutes.

Guess you could say the rest of the day kinda sucked over this but it's better now and I will try again. Tinder is the first huge problem. No Tinder. Next are the escorts. No meeting women on my phone, basically.

Just a true story for you all.