An introduction of someone who have been lurking in the forum for 2-3 yrs. (24 y.o.)

Hello Nofap Forum,

Today I had decided to make an account on this forum since lurking on it for like 2 years as an anonymous

For the beginning I have been PMO-ing since I was 10 (if i remember it correctly) and it was crazy. As far as I can remember, I can PMO 2-3 times a day as a teenager (11-17) because at that time I believe it was kind of a stress reliever for me and also there were a lot of trigger back then (I can say that I was kind of a dog in a heat). Then as I was entered my Uni year it became a lesser habit because there were many assignments and most of my friends always invited me to hangout with them back then, I remember that I was PMO-ing once or twice a week and sometimes more if I had the chance. Then in my senior year I came across to this forum where I read the downside of PMO-ing and I realized that it was all in some way true if I applied it to myself. I have been trying to abstain from PMO-ing from 2018 until now and have reset my counter many times as there is an old saying that says "Old Habits Die Hards" and it's true!

After many resets, last year I have determined my will to make 90 days(!!!) and here's how it went:

Jan : Resetting my counter a few times

Feb - Mar : I have reached 45 days but the urged came really strong and I submitted to it

Apr - June (First half) : Online class make me more stressed and the longest streak I have been mostly is 7 or 14 days.

June (Second half) - Mid September : I have reached 70 days streak (but due to sudden urge after flatlining I submitted once again to PMO) then the streak has been reset in the same way as Apr to June 1st half

Now this is where I made a comeback as my 2020 resolves (90 days abstain from PMO)
30 September - 30 December: I have reached my 90 days!!! I feel really fulfilled as 2020 hits most of us really hard in any way. I can give the details as follows
Day 1 - Day 14 : The urge is still really hard to open P and to MO.
Day 14 - Day 44: Straight flatlining - In these times I feel really depressed. I try to cheer myself up with playing games but still it feels bitter and then I tried to workout more (I realized I was really out of shape *hahaha*)
Day 45: I had my wet dream - which maybe because the sperm/semen(?) have been overloaded
Day 46 - 90 (30 dec): Feels okay, more motivated to do my assignments and other stuff. And sometimes the urge is there but I can fend it off.
Day 91 - till now: I have the urge to get to know and find an opposite gender. I think this happens because I am more motivated and wanted to be more social because I have been locked up in my house since March I think.

Oh, and I forgot to mention that I continue my study to a master's degree (that's why I still have some assignments that mentioned above). I think that's all that I can share so far

P.s. sorry for bad english, since it isn't my 1st language

EDIT: For those who just start this 90 days reboot, I hope you guys succeed and have a better one in the future!!!

 

Hey man! Thanks for the encouragement! I will keep this going on and on until I became more decent human being imo