Another Christian; another fapper

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by Notmandy, Dec 10, 2016.

  1. Notmandy

    Notmandy Fapstronaut

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    Sup friends,

    I literally was finishing porn when I decided to check snapchat and stumbled across the NoFap advertisement. Coincidence? I think not...

    So yeah, I'm a Christian who started masturbating since age...12? Maybe? I've had a high sex drive and strong sexual imagination since before I can remember, but I didn't start the "m" word till I got my first laptop (surprise surprise).

    I am a virgin, but I started hooking up with guys in the end of high school. It was great because things didn't have to be weird and I knew guys didn't want to date me, so we both got something out of it.

    Porn was on and off for me. Honestly, I was really into movies with sex scenes. I'm turned on by the story, so I preferred erotic novels and intense love scenes. It didn't help that my parents were SUPER open about sex.

    When I got to college, I decided to wait till marriage to have sex and stoped hooking up... mostly; but by then, I was still used to masturbating 2 or 3 times a day. It was bad. I masturbated in a lot of places and some I'm too ashamed to talk about.

    For Lent (Christian season for abstaining from stuff, FYI), I started giving up masturbation and quickly discovered my addiction. Every year for Lent, I give it up and every year I fail.

    Recently I gave it up to become closer to God. I did well for 2-3 weeks. Then I broke... hard. In a matter of a few moments, I had found myself on an online chat room and started sexting with strangers for two days straight!

    That may not seem very bad to some, but it was a VERY low point for me. I was sending nudes and talking with married men... yikes!!

    I really pray that NoFap will help me. I want to be able to enter into a Christian relationship clear minded and fap free! I'm just worried since I have so much sexual tension + waiting for marriage, that I'll keep falling into worst habits!

    Thanks for letting me vent!

    Good luck to you all!
     
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  2. ILoathePorn

    ILoathePorn Distinguished Fapstronaut

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    Welcome and congrats on discovering your addiction. This is not an easy one to overcome. I encourage you to start a journal and keep track of your thoughts, feelings, triggers and such. Set goals on what you want to accomplish and what counts as a relapse and a plan of what you are going to do if you are triggered. We are here to support you. This is a great community. You can also go to yourbrainonporn.org. They have some very good articles on how all of this stuff changes you.

    I am the one with the PMO addiction in my family. It was interesting to find out that my wife actually has an M addiction herself. Together we have been able to heal and have overcome many great obstacles. Our relationship is better along with our intimate time together.

    I have no doubt you will be successful and get to where you want to be. Stay strong!
     
  3. Tiny antelope

    Tiny antelope Fapstronaut

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    Welcome! Its great to have you here. Keep working at it and don't give up.
     
  4. D . J .

    D . J . Fapstronaut

    Remember we are not to do this alone. Do not fear your weakness when you have Christ on your side. Don't forget to call on Him. I would also suggest joining the Christian Fapstronaut group to be encouraged through scripture and prayer.
     
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