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Man I have NEVER experienced the amount of temptations that I have experienced in the past 48 hours. My brain has been constantly trying to get me to watch one last porn video (which was supposed to be like a long time ago). But the other part of my brain just kept saying no. At times it got pretty brutal. So brutal that I got so anxious and stressed that I almost wanted to throw up. See I think the reason why I am struggling so badly right now is because in the past I would have given up by now. So my brain is use to me saying yes to porn instead of no and it doesn't like it. I kept telling myself that its not worth it. That jacking off for 1 minute to get that 1 second of dopamine isn't worth your time and energy. This is really taking a big toll on me right now and I am going to be honest I am not sure I can make it through a third day if the temptations get as high tomorrow. The worst might be over for today but I know it will be back and even more vicious. I need to just be ready to take some more bullets. I don't care if I get out of this 7 day challenge all beaten up. I mean after all I am in this to win this.
